Jewish fiction; Jews -- New York (State) -- New York -- Fiction; Lower East Side (New York, N.Y.) -- Fiction; Short stories
The next day I went back to the shop--to the same long hours--to
the same low wages--to the same pig-eyed, fat-bellied boss. But I
was no longer the same. For the first time in my life I bent to the
inevitable. I accepted my defeat. But something in me, stronger than I,
rose triumphant even in my surrender.
“Yes, I must submit to the shop,” I thought. “But the shop shall
not crush me. Only my body I must sell into slavery--not my heart--not
my soul.
“To any one who sees me from without, I am only a dirt-eating worm,
a grub in the ground, but I know that above this dark earth-place in
which I am sunk is the green grass--and beyond the green grass, the sun
and sky. Alone, unaided, I must dig my way up to the light!”
* * * * *
Lunch-hour at the factory. My book of Shelley’s poems before me and
I was soon millions of miles beyond the raucous voices of the hungry
eaters.
“Did you already hear the last news?” Yetta tore my book from me in
her excitement.
“What news?” I scowled at her for waking me from my dreams.
“We’re going to have electricity by the machines. And the
forelady says that the new boss will give us ten cents more on a dozen
waists!”
“God from the world! How did it happen--electricity--better pay?”
I asked in amazement. For that was the first I had heard of improved
conditions of work.
But little by little, step by step, the sanitation improved. Open
windows, swept floors, clean wash-rooms, individual drinking-cups
introduced a new era of factory hygiene. Our shop was caught up in the
general movement for social betterment that stirred the country.
It was not all done in a day. Weary years of struggle passed before the
workers emerged from the each-for-himself existence into an organized
togetherness for mutual improvement.
At last, with the shortened hours of work, I had enough vitality
left at the end of the day to join the night-school. Again my
dream flamed. Again America beckoned. In the school there would be
education--air, life for my cramped-in spirit. I would learn to form
the thoughts that surged formless in me. I would find the teacher that
would make me articulate.
Shelley was English literature.
So I joined the literature class. The course began with the “De
Coverley Papers.” Filled with insatiate thirst, I drank in every line
with the feeling that any minute I would get to the fountain-heart of
revelation.
Night after night I read with tireless devotion. But of what? The
manners and customs of the eighteenth century, of people two hundred
years dead.
One evening after a month’s attendance, when the class had dwindled
from fifty to four and the teacher began scolding us who were left for
those who were absent, my bitterness broke.
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