Jewish fiction; Jews -- New York (State) -- New York -- Fiction; Lower East Side (New York, N.Y.) -- Fiction; Short stories
“So you got no pity on an orphan and your own relation? All her young
years she choked herself in darkness and now comes already a little
light for her, a man that can make a good living wants her--”
“And who’ll have pity on me if I’ll let her out from my
hands? Who is this Motkeh, anyway? Is he good off? Would I also
have a place where to lay my old head? Where stands he out with his
pushcart?”
“On Essex Street near Delancey.”
“Oi-i! You mean Motkeh Pelz? Why, I know him yet from years ago. They
say his wife died him from hunger. She had to chew the earth before she
could beg herself out a cent from him. By me Shenah Pessah has at least
enough to eat and shoes on her feet. I ask you only is it worth already
to grab a man if you got to die from hunger for it?”
Shenah Pessah could listen no longer.
“Don’t you worry yourself for me,” she commanded, charging into
the room. “Don’t take pity on my years. I’m living in America,
not in Russia. I’m not hanging on anybody’s neck to support me. In
America, if a girl earns her living, she can be fifty years old and
without a man, and nobody pities her.”
Seizing her shawl, she ran out into the street. She did not know where
her feet carried her. She had only one desire--to get away. A fierce
rebellion against everything and everybody raged within her and goaded
her on until she felt herself choked with hate.
All at once she visioned a face and heard a voice. The blacker, the
more stifling the ugliness of her prison, the more luminous became the
light of the miraculous stranger who had stopped for a moment to talk
to her. It was as though inside a pit of darkness the heavens opened
and hidden hopes began to sing.
Her uncle was asleep when she returned. In the dim gaslight she
looked at his yellow, care-crushed face with new compassion in
her heart. “Poor old man!” she thought, as she turned to her
room. “Nothing beautiful never happened to him. What did he have in
life outside the worry for bread and rent? Who knows, maybe if such a
god of men would have shined on him--” She fell asleep and she awoke
with visions opening upon visions of new, gleaming worlds of joy and
hope. She leaped out of bed singing a song she had not heard since she
was a little child in her mother’s home.
Several times during the day, she found herself, at the broken mirror,
arranging and rearranging her dark mass of unkempt hair with fumbling
fingers. She was all a-tremble with breathless excitement to imitate
the fluffy style of the much-courted landlady’s daughter.
For the first time she realized how shabby and impossible her clothes
were. “Oi weh!” she wrung her hands. “I’d give away everything
in the world only to have something pretty to wear for him. My whole
life hangs on how I’ll look in his eyes. I got to have a hat and a
new dress. I can’t no more wear my ‘greenhorn’ shawl going out
with an American.
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