I am on fire--dark bright fierce fire with Loneliness. I move about again from room to room. I look out of windows and linger at doors. I close my eyes and open my eyes. My Soul-and-bones! I’m afire with Loneliness! It is Loneliness not made of the Empty House and the tamed wild Door-knobs and Doors and Curtains and the Lonely Errands. Those are its small-fruits. Itself is my ancient daylight Loneliness dating from Three-Years-Old when I first began whisperingly analyzing things and finding little life-items to be of a fierce bitter importance. If I were living among people, friendly people, then the Loneliness though unchanged would be disguised and vested with a padded muffling power--false, belike, and a mistake (but everything _is_ false and a mistake: only there are wrong mistakes and right mistakes)--but made of the world-stuff that lets a human being get by in this nervous life. But it would be of no use now. I must face Loneliness: and outface it. I do, and with no effort: for I am Lonelier than Loneliness’s self. So it feels. This locked-in mood--soon it may be worn down and outgrown, and the husks blown away in the winds. But may come after it a wilder Loneliness of being free, fearfully free: flavored with the heaviness of rain at night and draggledness of beggar-women’s skirts.-- Meanwhile bright and black among Doors and Door-knobs and Curtains and Tables burns the fire of this Loneliness with strong, strong flame. It is mystic agony. There is no thinking in it. There is an utterly irrational wish, an aching yearning for people: not people to see, or listen to, or talk to, but--humanness I could _feel_ with familiarity. I wish for hands and bodies near me: breath for mine faintly to mingle with: the feel of their human garments in the room around me: the feel of the pulsing blood in their veins remotely vibrant in the air: the feel of minds and spirits and throats and rich warm virile hair of human heads keeping me warmly company. I have heard one may step rarefied out of this living-place into the Fourth Dimension, where one feels everything without the efforts of feeling, and knows everything without the weights of knowing. It might be that I grope for in this black bright anguish. Yet I feel rarely rarefied, heavily rarefied, wornly rarefied in this living-place where Loneliness burns me in strong fire and where I can shake my life like a hollow gourd and hear the eerie rattling sound I make in it. _Late afternoon_ To-morrow Last night as I slept I dreamed a vivid dream.