American drama -- 20th century; Farm life -- Drama; Inheritance and succession -- Drama; Maine -- Drama
I _know_ it. I always thought a lot of her, in spite of our being
relations.
JANE
She loved you, Ben.
BEN
She left me without a dollar, knowin’ I was going to State’s Prison,
and what I’d be by the time I get out.
JANE
Maybe some day you’ll understand why she did it.
BEN
Because she thought you’d take better care of the money than any of
the rest of us.
JANE
And you hate me because of that, the way all the rest of the Jordans
do?
BEN
Sometimes.
JANE (_sadly_)
I suppose it’s natural.
BEN
But I ain’t such a fool as Henry, and the women folks. They think
you took advantage and fooled her into what she did. I thought so at
first, now I don’t.
JANE
What do you think now, Ben?
BEN
She’d watched you; she knew you were worth mor’n all of us in a lump.
I know it, too, but some way it riles me worse than if you wasn’t.
JANE
That’s silly!
BEN (_with growing resentment_)
Don’t you suppose I know what you’ve been doin’ to me. Tryin’ to make
a man of me. Tryin’ to help me. Standing up to me and fightin’ me
every day, tryin’ to teach me to be decent. Workin’ over me like I
was a baby, or somethin’, and you was tryin’ to teach me how to walk.
Gettin’ me so upset that every time I don’t do what I ought to do, I
get all het up inside; I never was so damned uncomfortable in all my
life.
JANE
And I never was so happy.
BEN
I s’pose God knew what he was about when he made women.
JANE
Of course he did.
BEN
Anyhow, he gave ’em the best of it, all right.
JANE
You don’t mean that! You _can’t_!
BEN
I do. Let a man get miserable, and he is miserable. A woman ain’t
really happy no other way.
JANE
Maybe you think I’m having an easier time right now than you are.
BEN
I know it.
JANE
They all hate me, and they all want something, all the time. I can’t
say yes, and it’s hard to always say no. Then there’s the farm, big,
and poor, and all worked out. The Jordans have been taking their
living out of this soil for more than a hundred years, and never
putting anything back.
BEN
Just themselves, that’s all.
JANE
Worked right, like they do out West, this place could be what it
ought to be. How can I do that; it needs a man.
BEN
I been thinkin’ lately things could be done a whole lot different.
JANE
By a man, if he loved the old place-- You Jordans robbed this soil
always. Suppose one of you tried to pay it back--it would mean work
and money, for a couple of years maybe, then I guess you’d see what
gratitude meant.
BEN
It could be done; it ought to be.
JANE
By you, Ben!
BEN
No--I guess I ain’t got the judgment.
JANE
You’ve got it, if you’d learn to use it.
BEN
Anyhow, I’ve got just a month, that’s all.
JANE
Maybe you’ll have more.
BEN
I’m as good as convicted as I sit here. I’ve only got a month.
JANE
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