She staggered as if he had struck her. What did it mean? It was
difficult enough to grasp the fact; to pierce to the underlying motive
was beyond her powers. A nameless fear assailed her. How could she live
alone through all the hours until to-morrow morning? She stared at the
words until they danced before her eyes. The fact was plain. In this
hour of her most awful need of him, he had gone from her side. Her
dismay was child-like in its piteousness.
“Did your master take any luggage with him?” she asked, steadying her
voice.
“Just his dressing-bag,” replied the maid; then breaking through
the restraint she had imposed upon herself: “And, oh, ma’am!--Mr.
Colman----?”
“He is acquitted, Jane,” said Irene.
The maid burst into tears, after the manner of her class. Suspense had
been great in the kitchen, where Hugh Colman had been invested with
mythical excellences. The cook, upon whom he had never set eyes, had
been weeping intermittently all day long. A fortiori, the naturalness
of the emotions of the parlourmaid who had waited upon him at table and
helped him on with his overcoat. It is odd how readily domestic servants
receive the impression of a guest’s personality and how genuinely their
sympathy or antipathy may be aroused. Perhaps, like silly women,
they viewed Hugh in too heroic a light--but, nevertheless, the girl’s
outburst was sincere. Irene, touched for the moment, forgot her anxiety.
But it returned swiftly as soon as she was alone. She twisted the paper
nervously in her hands, sat down upon one of the oak settles and tried
to reason away the fear. Presently she rose and went upstairs to her
room. She was desperately tired. She unpinned her veil, made a weary
pretence of rolling it up, and then sank down helpless on the edge of
the bed, her hands in her lap.
In this relaxed moral condition a woman cries softly, if a sympathetic
arm, man’s or woman’s, is put around her. When she is alone, however,
crying seems futile and undignified; she arises soon afterwards, as
Irene did, and mechanically changes her dress for a comfortable wrapper,
freshens her face-with the trivial comfort of a powder-puff’s softness,
tidies her hair, with dull, half-observant glances in her mirror, puts
_eau de cologne_ upon a clean handkerchief and wearily hangs up her
discarded garments. The lighter feminine instincts float like straws
upon the surface, beneath which other things have sunk for very
heaviness.
After this she went downstairs to the smoking:-room, whither Jane
brought her an egg beaten up in brandy. The girl hung about, eager for
a word of detail concerning the trial. The expectation was pathetic,
considering its impossibility of fulfillment. Irene dismissed her
gently, and took the stimulant, of which she stood in great need. And
then she thought, hard and anxiously.
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