"I don't doubt it, my girl," he answered huskily. "I was young once.
I, too, thought I loved a woman--your mother. I foolishly believed that
she loved me better than anyone on earth. Ah! You wring from me my
confession, because--because it should serve you as a lesson." And he
paused with bent head, while Liane held his strong but trembling hand.
"It is a wretched story," he went on in a low, harsh voice, "yet you
should know it, you who would bind yourself to this man irrevocably. At
the time this woman came into my life I was on leave down in the South
of France, with wealth, happiness and bright prospects. I loved her and
made her my wife. Then I went with my regiment to India, but already my
future was blasted, for within a year of my marriage the glamour fell
from my eyes and I knew that I had been duped. A fault committed by her
threw such opprobrium upon me that I was compelled to throw up my
commission, leave her and go back to England. I could not return to my
friends in London, because she would discover and annoy me; therefore I
have drifted hither and thither, falling lower and lower in the social
scale, until, ruined and without means, I became a common blackleg and
swindler. But it belongs to the past. It is dead, gone--gone for ever.
Those years have gone and my youth has gone. I've lived like other men
since then. Heaven knows it has not been a life to boast of, Liane.
There have been days and years in it when I dared not trust myself to
remember what had been--days of madness and folly, and months of useless
apathy. Ah!" he sighed, "I was straight enough before my marriage, but
my life was wrecked solely by that woman."
His daughter listened intently, and when he had finished she echoed his
deep sigh. Her father had never before told her the tragic story. She
had always believed that her mother died of fever in India a year after
marriage.
"Then my mother is not dead?" she observed reflectively.
"I do not know. To me she has been dead these eighteen years," he
answered, with a stern look upon his hard-set features. A lump rose in
his throat, and in his eye there was a suspicion of a tear.
"Was she like me?" Liane asked softly, still holding her father's hand
and looking up at him.
"Yes, darling," he replied. "Sometimes when you look at me I shrink
from you because your eyes are so like hers. She was just your age when
I married her."
There was a long and painful silence. The hearts of father and daughter
were too full for words. They were indeed an incongruous pair. He was
a reckless gamester, a cunning adventurer, whose career had more than
once brought him within an ace of arrest, while she, although
prematurely versed in the evil ways of a polyglot world, where the laws
of rectitude and morality were lax, was nevertheless pure, honest and
good.
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