to the man, as if he were likely to go away, and I ran across to get my
half-dollar changed at the restaurant.
I was now quite resolved to give him a quarter, and be done with it;
the thing was getting to be a bore. But when I entered the restaurant
I saw no one there but a young man quite at the end of a long room;
and when he had come all the way forward to find what I wanted, I was
ashamed to ask him to change my half-dollar, and I pretended that I
wanted a package of Sweet Caporal cigarettes, which I did not want, and
which it was a pure waste for me to buy, since I do not smoke, though
doubtless it was better to buy them and encourage commerce than to give
the half-dollar and encourage beggary. At any rate, I instinctively
felt that I had political economy on my side in the transaction, and I
made haste to go back to the man on the steps, and secure myself with
Christian charity too. On the way over to him, however, I decided that
I would not give him a quarter, and I ended by poising fifteen cents on
one of his outstretched stumps.
He seemed very grateful, and thanked me earnestly, with a little note
of surprise in his voice, as if he were not used to such splendid
charity as that; and in fact, I suppose very few people gave so
handsomely to him. He spoke with a German accent; and when I asked
him how he had lost his hands, he answered, “Frost. Frozen off, here
in the city.” I could not go on and ask him for further particulars,
for I thought it but too likely that he had been drunk when exposed to
weather that would freeze one’s hands off, and that he was now paying
the penalty of his debauchery. I was in no wise so much at peace with
myself as I had expected to be; and I was still less so when a young
girl halted as she came by, and, seeing what I had done, and hearing
what the man said, put a dime on the other stump. She looked poor
herself; her sack was quite shabby about the seams. I did not think she
could afford to give so much to a single beggar, and I was aware of
having tempted her to the excess by my own profusion. If she had seen
me giving the man only a nickel, she would perhaps have given him a
cent, which was probably all she could afford.
II.
I came away feeling indescribably squalid. I perceived now that I
could have taken my stand upon the high ground of discouraging street
beggary, and given nothing; but having once lowered myself to the level
of the early Christians, I ought to have given the half-dollar. It
did not console me to remember the surprise in the man’s gratitude,
and to reflect that I had probably given him at least three times as
much as he usually got from the tenderest-hearted people. I perceived
that I had been the divinely appointed bearer of half a dollar to his
mutilation and his misery, and I had given him fifteen cents out of it,
and wasted ten, and kept the other twenty-five; in other words, I had
embezzled the greater part of the money intrusted to me for him.
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