Frau Lehmann’s bad time was approaching. Anna and her friends referred
to it as her “journey to Rome,” and Sabina longed to ask questions,
yet, being ashamed of her ignorance, was silent, trying to puzzle it
out for herself. She knew practically nothing except that the Frau had
a baby inside her, which had to come out—very painful indeed. One could
not have one without a husband—that she also realised. But what had the
man got to do with it? So she wondered as she sat mending tea towels in
the evening, head bent over her work, light shining on her brown curls.
Birth—what was it? wondered Sabina. Death—such a simple thing. She had
a little picture of her dead grandmother dressed in a black silk frock,
tired hands clasping the crucifix that dragged between her flattened
breasts, mouth curiously tight, yet almost secretly smiling. But the
grandmother had been born once—that was the important fact.
As she sat there one evening, thinking, the Young Man entered the café,
and called for a glass of port wine. Sabina rose slowly. The long day
and the hot room made her feel a little languid, but as she poured out
the wine she felt the Young Man’s eyes fixed on her, looked down at him
and dimpled.
“It’s cold out,” she said, corking the bottle.
The Young Man ran his hands through his snow-powdered hair and laughed.
“I wouldn’t call it exactly tropical,” he said. “But you’re very snug
in here—look as though you’ve been asleep.”
Very languid felt Sabina in the hot room, and the Young Man’s voice was
strong and deep. She thought she had never seen anybody who looked so
strong—as though he could take up the table in one hand—and his
restless gaze wandering over her face and figure gave her a curious
thrill deep in her body, half pleasure, half pain.... She wanted to
stand there, close beside him, while he drank his wine. A little
silence followed. Then he took a book out of his pocket, and Sabina
went back to her sewing. Sitting there in the corner, she listened to
the sound of the leaves being turned and the loud ticking of the clock
that hung over the gilt mirror. She wanted to look at him again—there
was a something about him, in his deep voice, even in the way his
clothes fitted. From the room above she heard the heavy dragging sound
of Frau Lehmann’s footsteps, and again the old thoughts worried Sabina.
If she herself should one day look like that—feel like that! Yet it
would be very sweet to have a little baby to dress and jump up and
down.
“Fräulein—what’s your name—what are you smiling at?” called the Young
Man.
She blushed and looked up, hands quiet in her lap, looked across the
empty tables and shook her head.
“Come here, and I’ll show you a picture,” he commanded.
She went and stood beside him. He opened the book, and Sabina saw a
coloured sketch of a naked girl sitting on the edge of a great,
crumpled bed, a man’s opera hat on the back of her head.
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