For that he and not Evie had been responsible for this pleasantry at
the expense of my appearance I had concluded by a much sounder
process of observation and reasoning than that my love-lorn state
predisposed me entirely in her favour. My watching, a failure in
other respects, had at least succeeded in this respect. And that I
had found had not been without its barb for me. You may remember my
former pathetic gratitude that, while others singled me out for
marked treatment, she alone had not, in the trifling forms and
observances that are the gracious outside of intercourse as distinct
from its inner truth, differentiated me from the rest of the world.
Well, I had made a guess at the reason for that. It was, in a word,
her upbringing. The aunt with whom she lived in Woburn Place had
taught her to "behave nicely," and so on. I could see that education.
Such maxims as that one must not "judge by appearances," that
"handsome is that handsome does," and, generally speaking, the
unexceptional tradition that the "less fortunately circumstanced"
have special claims on superior gentleness and pity, form almost the
whole of it. I, it appeared, was one of these "less fortunately
circumstanced".... Of course nobody was to blame. By-and-by the
amiable aunt would probably go a little further, and teach her that
it is not enough that these unimpeachable precepts should be merely
observed, but that the thought behind them must be concealed as well.
When you treat a poor devil just as if he was anybody else you must
not let it be seen that you do so from perception that he is not....
Anyway, there it was, and it rather took the shine out of that
"good-night, Mr Jeffries" that had sent me off happy to Archie's
rooms on the evening when I had been so startlingly shaken out of my
fool's paradise.
Thus I was persuaded, and as it turned out quite rightly, that it had
been young Merridew, and not she, who had allowed his tongue this
licence both on Weston's physical characteristics and my own.
His cup of tea was still on the floor, and by this time was cold. He
hadn't tasted it, and, his renewed congratulations on what he supposed
to be my blissful state of mind over, was once more fidgeting to be off.
But it was quite at my own pleasure whether I released him or not; I had
the hateful advantage of my baked potatoes and my poverty; and though he
was getting colder moment by moment, being less accustomed to the lack
of a fire than I, I did not spare him.
"Yes," I remarked musingly by-and-by, as if I had been thinking over a
former remark, "I'd take that Method paper quite seriously if I were
you. Save up your little fling till that's over. Stag-parties and work
don't go together, my son."
He had a little gleam of perspicacity. "What little fling?" he asked.
"Who said I was going to have one?"
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