The top-heavy little Jewess, Miss Levey, was a very broker for gossip
and tattle, and the remarks she occasionally made about others to me
were quite enough to warn me that she would make equally free with
myself to others. Both she and Miss Windus seemed to shout aloud the
very sex-difference the existence of which they seemed at the same time
to be denying. They "could not think of giving trouble" when one or
other of the forty men placed a chair or adjusted a light or carried a
Remington for them; but they would have known how to show their sense
of the absence of such attentions all the same.
I do not know that Miss Causton pleased me very much more, but she at
any rate moved with a wonderful physical harmonious grace and flow. If
one might judge from her hands and wrists (a business certificate on
which she ever bestowed the most sedulous care) she did not come from
quite the same social level as the other two--was, perhaps, the daughter
of a doctor who had married his house-keeper, or of a decent governess
whose decency had not prevented her from running off with a groom; but I
made no attempt to unravel either this riddle or any other that her
rather contemptuous grey eyes might contain. The attitudes she took in
reaching down a book from a shelf or passing her arm about the waist of
one of the other girls when they assembled for gossip were all I wanted
of her, and those began and remained a purely æsthetic satisfaction.
Therefore there could hardly have been a more complete contrast than
there was between these apparently a-sexual yet in reality excessively
sex-conscious women and my delicate unawakened Evie Soames. She made no
more difficulty about giving me a "Good-evening," or "Good-night" than
she did with the rest of the world; and though for a long time our
speech stopped at that, it was yet as much as I had with any other
woman whomsoever. That I should get even thus much of what everybody
else in the world seemed to get as a matter of course came so gently and
softly over me that I did not dream of a worse misery that might lurk
hidden within it, and in those early days of my love a mother would not
have fought more wildly for her babe than I would have turned on any who
had offered to come between me and even this sparse sweetness that had
come for the first time into my life.
III
The events I am now about to relate occurred during those early days,
while I was still content to possess my dreams, as if as long as I
closed my eyes the world would stand still about me.
One November night, as the series of lectures on Method was drawing to a
close, I returned with Archie Merridew to his rooms, silent, but
exceedingly happy. The cause of my happiness will not greatly excite
you, it had been no more than Evie's "Good-night, Mr Jeffries," given me
as I had waited on the stairs of the college for young Merridew, who had
lingered behind to ask Weston something or other.
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