He set off at an impetuous pace, which he moderated almost immediately;
and gayly chattering all the way, led me--feeling like a villain at
every step, yet not in the least relaxing from my purpose--to the
hostel, where we found Brunow chaffing the landlady, who was already
busy in the preparation of our breakfast. The impetuous Lieutenant
Breschia fell upon his neck and kissed him on both cheeks, and Brunow
returned the salute with heartiness. I may as well let the fact out at
once and have the declaration over: I was beginning to have a serious
dislike for Brunow, though I strove to subdue it, trying to reflect
how much our rivalry, of which he knew nothing, might possibly warp my
judgment of him. At that minute I felt a downright twinge of hatred and
contempt for him; and his kisses made him seem like a sort of Judas in
my eyes. I did not pause to reflect that the kiss meant no more to him
than a shake of the hand means to a man who has been bred in England,
and it is a form of salute which--though I have been familiar with the
sight of it for years together--I cordially hate. Those beastly South
American Spaniards, among whom I fought, were always at it, with their
beards scented with garlic and tobacco! It was a form of salute I had
hard work to avoid at times; but I should always have been ready to
astonish the man who had succeeded in getting at me in that fashion. I
loathed Brunow for his acceptance and return of that caress; and yet the
man-was doing no more than his breeding demanded of him; and if he had
recoiled from his friend he would have insulted him. I loathed myself
because this duplicity was necessary to our plan, but I never proposed
to myself for a moment to go back from the plan itself. I stood pledged
to Miss Rossano to rescue her father from that horrible long-drawn
imprisonment if the courage, or the wit, of man could compass it; and I
meant, with all my heart and soul, to keep my word. In spite of that I
had no stomach for the means it was necessary to employ; and at last
it came to this: in place of hating and despising myself for using the
means, I took to hating and despising the Austrians for making the means
necessary.
In less than a minute Brunow was justifying his friend's opinion of him
by an extravagantly farcical story of our adventures by the way, and
the young Austrian was laughing at him as if he would burst his stays.
I knew, of course, that he wore those feminine additions to the toilet,
because within the last hour I had seen him take them off and put them
on again; and the effeminacy of that trick, which was of course merely
national and professional, and not in the least to be charged against
him personally, added to the disgust I felt at him and at Brunow, and
at the whole Austrian nation, and at myself, and at our joint
treachery--Brunow's and mine.
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