“I had no hope of freedom,” he returned. “But everything else had gone
that held me from the beasts, and that I determined should not go. I am
no poet, but I have occupied myself in making verses. I have done into
verse every incident of my life, and the character and aspect of every
person I have known. I have translated every line into every language of
which I am master. I have hundreds of thousands of lines in my head--how
can I tell how many? They are poor enough, I dare say, but I could talk
every working day for weeks and not exhaust them. They are in French,
Italian, German, English, Spanish, in Greek and Latin, in the patois
of a half-dozen districts of my native country. How many hundreds of
thousands of hours have had no other occupation. But for that I had gone
mad, my friend.”
He rose and began to pace the deck, and I watched him. The night was
calm, and the sea was like a mill-pond. Sometimes he forgot himself,
and prowled with bent shoulders and clasped hands in a limited space,
walking to and fro, with a sharp check at the end of such brief
promenade, as if an invisible world had put a limit to the space he
moved in; that was the jail-bird's gait, and the prison limits were
about him again to his unconscious memory. Then, at other times he would
assert himself with an effort only too visible. He would lift his head,
throw out his chest, and march the full length of the deck with an
assurance of freedom and manhood. But the slouching gait was always back
in a minute, and his unconscious fancy began to confine his footsteps
once more. On a sudden he paused in his walk and stretched out his right
hand.
“That light?” he said.
“Dover,” I answered. “We shall land in half an hour.”
We were fortunately alone, for I would not have had it happen in the
presence of a stranger for a thousand pounds. I had scarcely spoken when
he dropped his face into both his hands and broke into an hysteric fit
of crying. His limbs failed him; and in the passion of his emotion he
would certainly have fallen to the deck if I had not put an arm about
him. His poor body was all crate and basket, ribs and spine; and the
wretched man's skeleton figure shook in my arms as if each sob were an
explosion. He laid his head on my shoulder at last, and I put my other
arm round him and held him to my breast. I love my country, and I thank
God for her daily that she is free, and has taught the world the lessons
of freedom, for that is the great and just pride of all Englishmen; but
I never blessed her in my heart as I did then.
“God bless the dear old land,” I said. “There is freedom there at
least.”
I did not know that I had spoken until he answered me.
“There is freedom there,” he said, in his foreign voice, broken with
sobs. “Thank God for freedom.”
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