Short stories; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
There were steps on the porch,--not Captain Dyer's, for he and his good
wife were lending their voices to swell the stentorian chorus that was
shaking the church on the hill; the footsteps paused at the door, and
Arnold himself opened it. He had not, evidently, expected to see her.
“I was looking for some one to ask about you,” he said. “Are you sure you
are able to be down?”
“Oh yes. I've been sitting up for several days. I wanted to see the
mountains again.”
He was looking at her intently, while she flushed with weakness, and drew
the fringes of her shawl over her tremulous hands.
“How ill you have been! I have wished myself a woman, that I might do
something for you! I suppose Mrs. Dyer nursed you like a horse.”
“Oh no; she was very good; but I don't remember much about the worst of it.
I thought you had gone home.”
“Home! Where do you mean? I didn't know that I had ever boasted of any
reserved rights of that kind. I have no mortgage, in fact or sentiment, on
any part of the earth's surface, that I'm acquainted with!”
He spoke with a hard carelessness in his manner which make her shrink.
“I mean the East. I am homeless, too, but all the East seems like home to
me.”
“You had better get rid of those sentimental, backward fancies as soon as
possible. The East concerns itself very little about us, I can tell you! It
can spare us.”
She thrilled with pain at his words. “I should think you would be the last
one to say so,--you, who have so much treasure there.”
“Will you please to understand,” he said, turning upon her a face of bitter
calmness, “that I claim no treasure anywhere,--not even in heaven!”
She sat perfectly still, conscious that by some fatality of helpless
incomprehension every word that she said goaded him, and she feared to
speak again.
“Now I have hurt you,” he said in his gentlest voice. “I am always hurting
you. I oughtn't to come near you with my rough edges! I'll go away now, if
you will tell me that you forgive me!”
She smiled at him without speaking, while her fair throat trembled with a
pulse of pain.
“Will you let me take your hand a moment? It is so long since I have
touched a woman's hand! God! how lonely I am! Don't look at me in that way;
don't pity me, or I shall lose what little manhood I have left!”
“What is it?” she said, leaning towards him. “There is something strange in
your face. If you are in trouble, tell me; it will help me to hear it. I am
not so very happy myself.”
“Why should I add my load to yours? I seem always to impose myself upon
you, first my hopes, and now my--no, it isn't despair; it is only a kind
of brutal numbness. You must have the fatal gift of sympathy, or you would
never have seen my little hurt.”
Miss Frances was not strong enough to bear the look in his eyes as he
turned them upon her, with a dreary smile. She covered her face with one
hand, while she whispered,--
“Is it--you have not lost her?”
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