He was alone in the box; and he sate there, alternately entranced by the
sweet tones of the voice he loved, and enraged by the thought that all
this houseful of people were sharing a satisfaction which by right
belonged to him alone. When they applauded—as they did often and
vehemently, for Miss Napier was the idol of the time—he scowled at them
as though they were insulting the woman whom he hoped to make his wife.
He resented their rude staring as an indignity visited upon himself; and
when, at the end of the act, they turned and talked to each other about
the great actress, his family passion drew dark meanings from their
smiles and whispered conversations, and his heart burned within him. A
night at the theatre was not a pleasure to Harry Ormond. He left so
maddened by love and jealousy that he became a joke to his
companions—behind his back, be it understood, for he had a quick temper
and a sure eye with which the wits did not care to trifle. He was not a
man to be provoked or thwarted lightly; and in this period of
contrariety, disquietude, and gusty passion, which falls, in some
measure or other, to the lot of most young men, a discreet avoidance of
irritating topics was the course which wisdom dictated to Lord
Knottingley’s friends. Not that he was a sullen boor or bravo, eager to
tread on any man’s corns, and kill him for swearing. He was naturally
light-hearted, fickle, generous; impulsive in every mood of affection or
dislike; and at this time, when these uncomfortable love-measles were
strong upon him, he as often quarrelled with himself as with his
neighbours. He was sensitive and proud; he was naturally jealous; his
sweetheart, worse luck, was an actress; and it was a time, as some of us
can remember, when scandal was cultivated as an art. It is not to be
wondered at, therefore, that Harry Ormond suffered all the tortures,
while enjoying few of the amenities of love.
That night he was sitting in Miss Napier’s house, alone and moody. He
had an uneasy feeling that the strength of his passion was forcing him
to a step from which his calmer reason might otherwise have caused him
to shrink. He had not sufficient self-criticism to know that his
impulsiveness, under these circumstances, might hereafter beget all the
mutual miseries of inconstancy; and yet there were vague forebodings in
his mind. He crossed the room, which was very prettily furnished and
brilliantly lit, and leaning his arms on the mantelpiece, proceeded to
study a small and daintily-executed miniature which hung against the
wall. Was he trying to trace in these calm and beautiful features his
own destiny? or was he wondering how his passion might alter the future
of her whom he loved so much? or was he bitterly thinking that this
portrait, like the original, was but a thing at which all men might gaze
as well as he?
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