I made a new acquaintance that winter—a wretched little blue devil to
whom I gave the name of Grumpy, and with whom I battled from morning
till night, and especially from night till morning. It is not pain that
blue devils thrive on—I had proved that all these many years; it is
idleness that gives them their chance for mischief—the helpless
idleness of utter exhaustion, when one’s thoughts hang vacant, and body
nor mind can longer force its way past the wall of pain to move, however
slowly, in the beautiful outside world of human effort and achievement.
So Grumpy came to Bird Corners. Satan himself knows no self-respecting
devil would have stayed on the premises after the way I treated the
creature; but blue devils respect neither themselves nor anybody else.
An hour after I had flung him out by the heels he would bob up by the
sofa in the finest fettle imaginable, grinning at my exhaustion from our
late encounter. The most I ever could be sure of doing was keeping him
invisible to every one else; but he made up for that in the nights.
Still, one adjusts one’s self to the inevitable in time; and blue devils
are all in the day’s work, I suppose, like the dentist or a cold in
one’s head. One gets through with the visitation somehow, and laughs
afterward because, for the time, at least, it is over.
When the children came home in the summer there was trouble, of course.
Doctors came and went, though I had privately done my full duty by them
long before; and I swallowed a deal of nasty stuff which did absolutely
no good, except that it soothed the feelings of the family.
By the end of the summer David was insisting on something radical; and
when he went back to college he took me with him, and deposited me in a
northern sanitarium, where I was to lie flat on my back three months,
and be made over as good as new.
This was not only radical, but revolutionary. Chatterton had never
before furnished an inmate for a sanitarium. The word, indeed, was
commonly understood as a polite euphemism for a lunatic asylum. The
sentiments of the kin ranged all the way from Grace Wood’s anxious
hopefulness to Cousin Jane’s frank curiosity concerning what new kind of
craziness Lyddy had been up to now, to make John Bird feel like she had
to be shut up in a private mad-house. She took my part, however, so far
as to say, both to my face and behind my back, that I wasn’t a mite
crazier than I’d been all my life; and if folks could get along with me
this long it did look like a pity they couldn’t put up with me a while
longer, and save disgracing the family. There was nothing the matter
with me, Cousin Jane opined, beyond being spoiled to death, and lazy;
and, anyway, it was flying in the face of Providence to go on living if
your time had come to die.
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