All day to-day I have emptied myself of any wishes of my own and tried
to be the perfect hostess. I have given myself up to Mrs. Barnes, and on
the walk I followed where she led, and I made no suggestions when paths
crossed though I have secret passionate preferences in paths, and I
rested on the exact spot she chose in spite of knowing there was a much
prettier one just round the corner, and I joined with her in admiring a
view I didn't really like. In fact I merged myself in Mrs. Barnes,
sitting by her on the mountain side in much the spirit of Wordsworth,
when he sat by his cottage fire without ambition, hope or aim.
_August 27th._
The weather blazes along in its hot beauty. Each morning, the first
thing I see when I open my eyes is the great patch of golden light on
the wall near my bed that means another perfect day. Nearly always the
sky is cloudless--a deep, incredible blue. Once or twice, when I have
gone quite early to my window towards the east, I have seen what looked
to my sleepy eyes like a flock of little angels floating slowly along
the tops of the mountains, or at any rate, if not the angels themselves,
delicate bright tufts of feathers pulled out of their wings. These
objects, on waking up more completely, I have perceived to be clouds;
and then I have thought that perhaps that day there would be rain. But
there never has been rain.
The clouds have floated slowly away to Italy, and left us to another day
of intense, burning heat.
I don't believe the weather will ever break up. Not, anyhow, for a long
time. Not, anyhow, before I have heard Merivale to the end.
_August 28th._
In the morning when I get up and go and look out of my window at the
splendid east I don't care about Merivale. I defy him. And I make up my
mind that though my body may be present at the reading of him so as to
avoid distressing Mrs. Barnes and driving her off the terrace--we are
minute in our care not to drive each other off the terrace--my ears
shall be deaf to him and my imagination shall wander. Who is Merivale,
that he shall burden my memory with even shreds of his unctuous
imitations? And I go down to breakfast with a fortified and shining
spirit, as one who has arisen refreshed and determined from prayer, and
out on the terrace I do shut my ears. But I think there must be chinks
in them, for I find my mind is much hung about, after all, with
Merivale. Bits of him. Bits like this.
_Propertius is deficient in that light touch and exquisitely polished
taste which volatilize the sensuality and flattery of Horace. The
playfulness of the Sabine bard is that of the lapdog, while the Umbrian
reminds us of the pranks of a clumsier and less tolerated quadruped._
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