In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her LoverOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her Lover
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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she walked downstairs, her feet did not seem to touch the ground. What a
poor, small, ignoble little being she had been not to read him all the
time! but now that the illumination had come, and she saw his conduct
from first to last, Anne saw, or thought she saw, that everything was
right, everything noble. She approved, and was happy. She forgot Mr.
Loseby and the morning’s business, and walked towards the hall with a
serene splendour about her, a glory as of the moon and the stars, all
beautiful in reflected light.
There was nobody in the hall, and the kind Curate when he came in did
nothing but pass through it. ‘I suppose I shall find them in the
drawing-room?’ he said, waving his hand and walking past. Anne accepted
the passing greeting gladly. What did she want with Charley? He went
through the hall while the other came to her side.
‘You wanted me, Anne?’
‘Wanted you--oh, how I have wanted you!--there has been so much to do;
but I approve, Cosmo--I approve everything you have done. I feel it
right that I should have stood alone till now. You help me more in doing
my duty, than if you had done all for me. You were right all along, all
through----’
‘Thank you, my dearest,’ he said. ‘But, Anne, I see in what you say that
there have been moments in which you have not approved. This was what I
feared--and it would have been so much easier to do what was pleasant.’
‘No--I do not think there were moments--at least not anything more.
Cosmo, what do you think of me now, a woman without a penny? I wonder if
you approve of me as I approve of you.’
‘I think I do more, dear: I admire, though I don’t think I could have
been so brave myself. If you had not been just the girl you are, I fear
I should have said, Throw me over and let us wait.’
‘You did say it,’ she said in a lower tone; ‘that is the only thing of
all that I do not like in you.’
‘To think you should have undergone such a loss for me!--and I am not
worth it--it humbles me, Anne. I could not believe it was possible. Up
to the last minute I felt it could not be.’
‘I knew it would be,’ she said softly: was not there something else that
Cosmo had to say? She waited for half a minute with a certain
wistfulness in her eyes. The glory of her approval faded a little--a
very little. To be perfect he had to say something more. ‘If thou
wouldst be perfect!’ Was not even the Saviour himself disappointed
(though he knew what was in man) when the young ruler whom he loved at
first sight did not rise to that height which was opened to him? Anne
could not say the same words, but she felt them in her heart. Oh, Cosmo,
if thou wouldst be perfect! but he did not see it, or he did not do it
at least.
‘I cannot understand it yet,’ he went on. ‘Such injustice, such
cruelty--do I pain you, my darling? I cannot help it. If it had been
only the postponement of all our hopes, that would have been bad enough:
but to take your rights from you arbitrarily, absolutely, without giving
you any choice----’
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