In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her LoverOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her Lover
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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hoar frost on the grass, already pursuing it into corners, melting away
the congealed dew upon the herbs and trees. She stood for a moment’s
meditation, still gazing out without any object, scarcely knowing why.
To a thoughtful and musing mind there is a great attraction at a window,
which is a kind of opening in the house and in one’s being, full of long
wistful vistas of inspection into the unseen. But Anne had not been
there many minutes before a cry broke from her lips, and her whole
aspect changed. Charley Ashley was coming along the road which crossed
the park--but not alone. A thrill ran through her from her head to her
feet. In a moment her mind went over the whole of the past fortnight’s
story. Her chill and dumbness of disappointment, which she would not
express even to herself, when he did not come; her acquiescence of
reason (but still with a chill of the heart) in his explanations; the
subdued sense of restraint, and enforced obedience to other rules, not
first or only to those of the heart, and the effort with which she had
bowed herself: her solitude, her longing for support, her uneasiness
every way under the yoke which he had thought it necessary to impose
upon himself and her, all this seemed to pass before her view in a
moment. She had acquiesced; she had even reasoned herself into
satisfaction; but oh! the glorious gleam of approval with which Anne
saw all that she had consented to beforehand in the light of the fact
that now he was here; now he was coming, all reason for his staying away
being over--not hurriedly, as if wishing to chase the recollection of
her father from her mind, or to grudge him that last pre-eminence in the
thoughts of those belonging to him, which is the privilege of every man
who dies. Cosmo had fulfilled every reverent duty towards him who was
his enemy. He had done what it was most difficult to do. He had kept
away till all the rites were accomplished; and now he was coming! All
was over, not one other observance of affection possible; the very widow
coming out again, thinking (a little) of the set of her cap and planning
to go abroad in spring. And now there was no longer any reason why the
lover should stay away. If there is one feeling in the world which is
divine, it is the sense of full approval of those whom one loves most.
To be able with one’s whole heart to consent and know that all they have
done is well, to approve them not with blindness (though that is the
silliest fable) of love, or its short-sightedness, but, on the contrary,
with all its enlightenment in the eyes that cannot be content with less
than excellence: to look on and see everything and approve--this, and
not any personal transport or enjoyment, is heaven. Anne, standing by
the window seeing the two figures come in sight, in a moment felt the
gates of Paradise open before her, and was swept within them by a silent
flood of joy. She approved, making no exception, reserving nothing. As
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