He was changed beyond recognition. The skin on his face had become
wonderfully white, it had grown transparent. From his face came a
certain coldness, as from a corpse; a yellowish shade shone from his
forehead, which seemed to be of wax. His lips were white; his hair,
beard, and mustache looked almost black as compared with that pallor. He
was like a man who had passed through a long illness, and on his face
had settled certainty concerning himself and a kind of despairing
resignation.
Yosef, a little astonished, a little confused, did not know perhaps how
to begin. Gustav brought him out of the trouble.
"I have come to thee with a prayer," said he. "Once thou didst promise
not to visit the widow; withdraw that promise."
Yosef made a wry face with a kind of constraint. But he only answered,--
"It is not a custom with me to break my word."
"True," answered Gustav, calmly; "but this is something entirely
different. If I were to die, for example, the promise would not bind
thee, and I, as thou seest, am sick, very grievously sick. Meanwhile she
needs protection. I cannot protect her now, I cannot watch over her. I
must lie down to rest, for I am wearied somewhat. For that matter, I
will tell the whole truth to thee. She loves thee, and beyond doubt thou
lovest her also. I have stood in thy way and hers, but now I withdraw. I
do so perforce, and I shall not represent this as a sacrifice. I loved
her much, and I had a little hope that she would love me some day; but I
was mistaken." Here his voice fell an octave lower. "No one has ever
loved me. It has been very gloomy for me in life--But what is to be
done? Of late I have passed through much, but now that is over. To-day
my concern is that she be not left alone. Had I been able to decide on a
sacrifice, thou wouldst be her protector to-day. Canst thou do this for
me, Yosef? Thou hast energy, thou art rich, and she, I say, loves thee,
so thou wilt not end as I have. Oh, it has been hard in this world for
me--But never mind. I should not like to do her an injury--I love her
yet. I should not wish her to be alone because of me. At times, seest
thou, it is not proper to refuse people anything. Go, go to her! Thou
and I lived together once, we fought the same trouble, hence thou
shouldst do me this favor; for, I repeat, I am sick and I know not
whether I shall see her or thee again."
A tear gathered in Vasilkevich's eye; he rose and said, turning to
Yosef,--
"Thou shouldst do all that Gustav asks of thee."
"I will go to her, I will protect her," answered Yosef, decidedly. "I
give my word of honor to both of you."
"I thank thee," said Gustav. "Go there now."
A little later he was alone with Vasilkevich. The Lithuanian was silent
for some time, he struggled with his own heart; finally he spoke in a
voice of heartfelt sympathy,--
"Gustav, poor Gustav, how thou must suffer at this moment!"
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