It is true that the countess was well fitted to rouse sympathy. The
silent and deep sorrow which weighed her down at the moment did not
remove her so far from reality that she could not be charming to those
who were kind to her. She thanked Yosef with tears in her eyes;
stretched to him a hand, which he, with emotion rare in him, pressed to
his lips. "As I love God!" said Augustinovich, "I almost wept when she
looked at me. May the devils take me if she is not a hundred times more
beautiful than I am."
In fact, that new figure, attended already with words of sympathy, had
connected itself with the fate of the heroes of this book. That a
countess like her could not remain without influence on them is
understood easily. Whether the future will attach angel wings to the
shoulders of the countess, or show in her charming body a barren,
hypocritical soul, the continuation will teach us.
Hei! hei! If this life resembled a book; if it were possible to give
people souls such as are created in thought; but then would these be
people like the rest of mankind? It would be all one, however, for
poison cakes are the food of this world, as the boy said. The human soul
is like a spring; it carries poison far, and what man can guarantee that
poison is not lying at the bottom of his own soul, and that he would not
create poisoned characters? The soul is blank paper! God writes on one
side, and Satan on the other; but God and Satan are only symbols in this
case. In fact, there is another hand; the world is that hand really. The
world writes on the soul, good and bad people write on it, moments of
happiness write there, suffering writes more enduringly than all. But
there are souls like mussels. The mussel changes grains of sand, and the
soul pain, into pearls; sadness and solitude are the means. But not
always. It depends on the soul. Sadness and solitude sometimes conceal
weariness, emptiness, and stupidity. These three full sisters like to
dwell in palaces built of sadness and solitude, seeking that which they
have never lost. It does not follow from this that there are no charms
in solitude. Sadness has none, at least for a sad person. Solitude for
the soul is something like a time of sleep for the body. Nay, more; that
misty monad, the soul, seems to dissolve in solitude, to separate, to
vanish, to cease its existence almost; words and thoughts end in that
silent region; the soul is annihilated for a season, separates on all
sides from its own centre. All this is called rest.
Solitude is the worst term that the human mind has had wit to invent;
solitude is never alone, silence always goes with it.
It is a pity that the misty garments of this lady called Solitude are
borne most frequently by that seductive page whose name is Laziness.
But sometimes, say the poets, solitude gives a creative moment. The soul
is lost then and trembles, inclining to receive some vision flying in
from beyond.
For this reason only fools or sages love solitude greatly.
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