France -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- France -- Fiction
At night, when Madame Delmare, after supping silently with Sir Ralph,
withdrew to her own apartments, Noun did not come, as usual, to undress
her; she rang for her to no purpose, and when she had concluded that the
girl was resolved not to obey, she locked her door and went to bed. But
she passed a horrible night, and, as soon as the day broke, went down
into the park. She was feverish and agitated; she longed to feel the
cold enter her body and allay the fire that consumed her breast. The day
before, at that hour, she was happy, abandoning herself to the novel
sensations of that intoxicating love. What a ghastly disillusionment in
twenty-four hours! First of all, the news of her husband's return
several days earlier than she expected; those four or five days which
she had hoped to pass in Paris were to her a whole lifetime of
never-ending bliss, a dream of love never to be interrupted by an
awakening; but in the morning she had had to abandon the hope, to resume
the yoke, and to go to meet her master in order that he might not meet
Raymon at Madame de Carvajal's; for Indiana thought that it would be
impossible for her to deceive her husband if he should see her in
Raymon's presence. And then this Raymon, whom she loved as a god--it was
by him of all men that she was thus basely insulted! And lastly, her
life-long companion, the young creole whom she loved so dearly, suddenly
proved to be unworthy of her confidence and her esteem!
Madame Delmare had wept all night long. She sank upon the turf, still
whitened by the morning rime, on the bank of the little stream that
flowed through the park. It was late in March and nature was beginning
to awake; the morning, although cold, was not devoid of beauty; patches
of mist still rested on the water like a floating scarf, and the birds
were trying their first songs of love and springtime.
Indiana felt as if relieved of a heavy weight, and a wave of religious
feeling overflowed her soul.
"God willed it so," she said to herself; "in His providence he has given
me a harsh lesson, but it is fortunate for me. That man would perhaps
have led me into vice, he would have ruined me; whereas now the vileness
of his sentiments is revealed to me, and I shall be on my guard against
the tempestuous and detestable passion that fermented in his breast. I
will love my husband! I will try to love him! At all events I will be
submissive to him, I will make him happy by never annoying him, I will
avoid whatever can possibly arouse his jealousy; for now I know what to
think of the false eloquence that men know how to lavish on us. I shall
be fortunate, perhaps, if God will take pity on my sorrows and send
death to me soon."
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