Bigamy -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Mothers -- Fiction; Sisters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
He alternated between ghastly worry that made him talk about suicide,
and the wildest hopefulness. It was Frances who bore the brunt of the
misery. She fretted continually, couldn’t sleep at night. She thought
and schemed and planned for means of sustaining this beloved creature,
above all trying to secure him proper food three times a day without his
suspecting that some of its cost came from her own pocket. Luckily he
almost always forgot how much he had given her to keep for him, and how
much he had spent out of it. He didn’t imagine the suffering he caused
her. On the contrary, he believed that his fits of extravagant gaiety,
in reality quite beyond his control, were contrived especially to cheer
up Frances.
He was sometimes ready to admit to himself that Frankie’s disposition
was not quite what he had once thought it. She was absolutely cross.
Time after time she refused to go out with him, even to the “movies”;
she said they couldn’t afford it.
“But you don’t realise,” he protested, “how much I need a bit of
recreation.”
“I realise how much you’re going to need a bit of money,” she replied
grimly. “You can’t be childish. You’ll have to do without _everything_
but necessities for a while.”
VI
Inspiration came from a wholly unexpected source. Frankie was sitting in
her room in the dark one evening, after a walk with Lionel, exhausted
from her effort to encourage him in a mood of black despair. She had
drawn her chair up to the window and sat looking out over the roof of
the next house at the cloudy sky. There was the usual noise from the
court, the shrill children who never went to bed, the phonographs, a
woman singing in a piercing, artificial voice. She was used to it now,
scarcely heard it, but it filled her ears, and she was unaware of Miss
Eppendorfer’s entrance until she touched her on the shoulder.
“I knocked and knocked!” said she. “I wanted to ask you to make me a cup
of coffee; I’m so nervous.”
Frankie said ‘Of course’ but her voice was weary, and Miss Eppendorfer
noticed it.
“What’s the trouble, my dear?” she asked, kindly. “Let’s sit here and
talk a while.”
She sat down on the bed where she could reach out and lay a friendly
hand on Frankie’s arm.
“I’ve noticed--it’s not curiosity.... It’s only that I’m very fond of
you--you can’t imagine _how_ fond of you, my dear.... I don’t expect you
to return it. I know I’m not lovable. And probably you despise me
for--lots of things. But, my dear! My dear! I do wish you so well! I’d
do anything! If you’d like to tell me, perhaps I could help.... I’ve had
experience enough. I could understand.”
Frances was silent. She couldn’t bring herself to confide in Miss
Eppendorfer.
“I think I know,” the other went on. “It’s money, isn’t it? You want to
marry, but you’re afraid.”
“Not afraid,” said Frances, nettled. “It’s only that I don’t want to be
stupid--rash---- I don’t think it’s right to marry on nothing. I’d
rather wait ten years.”
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