Then she perceived that she, like the woman in the saga, had come to a
mass of the dead. She felt a cold shiver pass down her back, but it
happened, as often before, she felt more curious than frightened.
She saw now who were in the church. There were none but women there:
grey, bent forms, with circular capes and faded mantillas, with hats of
faded splendor and turned or threadbare dresses. She saw an unheard-of
number of wrinkled faces, sunken mouths, dim eyes and shrivelled hands,
but not a single hand which wore a plain gold ring.
Yes, Mamsell Fredrika understood it now. It was all the old maids who
had passed away in the land of Sweden who were keeping midnight mass in
the Österhaninge church.
Her dead sister leaned towards her.
“Sister, do you repent of what you have done for these your sisters?”
“No,” said Mamsell Fredrika. “What have I to be glad for if not that it
has been bestowed upon me to work for them? I once sacrificed my
position as an authoress to them. I am glad that I knew what I
sacrificed and yet did it.”
“Then you may stay and hear more,” said the sister.
At the same moment some one was heard to speak far away in the choir, a
mild but distinct voice.
“My sisters,” said the voice, “our pitiable race, our ignorant and
despised race will soon exist no more. God has willed that we shall die
out from the earth.
“Dear friends, we shall soon be only a legend. The old Mamsells’
measure is full. Death rides about on the road to the church to meet
the last one of us. Before the next midnight mass she will be dead, the
last old Mamsell.
“Sisters, sisters! We are the lonely ones of the earth, the neglected
ones at the feast, the unappreciated workers in the homes. We are met
with scorn and indifference. Our way is weary and our name is ridicule.
“But God has had mercy upon us.
“To _one_ of us He gave power and genius. To one of us He gave
never-failing goodness. To one of us He gave the glorious gift of
eloquence. She was everything we ought to have been. She threw light on
our dark fate. She was the servant of the homes, as we had been, but
she offered her gifts to a thousand homes. She was the caretaker of the
sick, as we had been, but she struggled with the terrible epidemic of
habits of former days. She told her stories to thousands of children.
She lead her poor friends in every land. She gave from fuller hands
than we and with a warmer spirit. In her heart dwelt none of our
bitterness, for she has loved it away. Her glory has been that of a
queen’s. She has been offered the treasures of gratitude by millions of
hearts. Her word has weighed heavily in the great questions of mankind.
Her name has sounded through the new and the old world. And yet she is
only an old Mamsell.
“She has transfigured our dark fate. Blessings on her name!”
The dead joined in, in a thousandfold echo: “Blessings on her name!”
“Sister,” whispered Mamsell Fredrika, “can you not forbid them to make
me, poor, sinful being, proud?”
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