She had called him a tramp, as one who belongs to another world might
do--a world that holds to self-respect and decency. He had read in her
voice utter and complete contempt for the thing he was. It was a bitter
moment. For him it stamped the low-water mark of his degradation. He
felt beneath her eyes a thing unclean.
What she had said was true. He was a tramp. He had ridden the rods,
asked for hand-outs, rough-housed with hoboes, slept with them. He had
just been thoroughly thrashed and kicked before her. What was the use
of resenting it? He had become declassed. Why should he not be kicked
and beaten? That was the customary way to treat his kind of cattle.
Tug swung heavily on a heel and followed his companions into the
willows.
CHAPTER III
ONE OF THE LOST LEGION
Among the lost legion are two kinds of men. There are those who have
killed or buried so deep the divine fire of their manhood that for
them there seems no chance of recovery in this world. There are those
in whom still burns somewhere a faint candle that may yet flame to a
dynamic glow of self-respect.
The young tramp slouching along the bank of Willow Creek drank deep of
the waters of despair. The rancher had called him a slacker, rotten to
the core. It was a true bill. He was a man spoiled and ruined. He had
thrown away his life in handfuls. Down and dragging, that’s what he
was, with this damned vice a ball and chain on his feet.
There was in him some strain of ignoble weakness. There must be, he
reasoned. Otherwise he would have fought and conquered the cursed
thing. Instead, he had fought and lost. He could make excuses. Oh,
plenty of them. The pain--the horrible, intolerable pain! The way the
craving had fastened on him before he knew it while he was still in the
hospital! But that was piffling twaddle, rank self-deception. A man had
to fight, to stand the gaff, to flog his evil yearnings back to kennel
like yelping dogs.
His declension had been swift. It was in his temperament to go fast,
to be heady. Once he let go of himself, it had been a matter of months
rather than of years. Of late he had dulled the edge of his despair.
The opiates were doing their work. He had found it easier to live in
the squalid present, to forget the pleasant past and the purposeful
future he had planned.
But now this girl, slim, clean, high-headed, with that searing contempt
for him in her clear eyes, had stirred up again the devils of remorse.
What business had he to companion with these offscourings of the earth?
Why had he given up like a quitter the effort to beat back?
In the cold waters of the creek he washed his swollen and bloodstained
face. The cold water, fresh from the mountain snows, was soothing to
the hot bruised flesh even though it made the wounds smart. He looked
down into the pool and saw reflected there the image of himself.
Beneath the eyes pouches were beginning to form. Soon now he would be a
typical dope fiend.
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