London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
Nay, she had worse power than that. From the long-sealed chambers of his
heart came a low cry as of reawakening life, life which would fain
be free again. The sweat stood on his forehead as he crushed down the
tenderness, the passion which he had thought dead. The sight of her
handwriting, after so long, had given back to him the dreadful power of
seeing herself, her features, her beautiful form. He flung himself by
the bedside, and smothered his face; the striving of the old spirit drew
groans from him.
What, what was he to her, or she to him? What conceivable circumstances
could render possible the realisation of that mad dream, of which he had
well-nigh died? It was imbecility to flatter himself with the fancy that
she loved him; but, if he could believe it, if she proved it to him----.
Had all his suffering been mere frantic jealousy? Had he misunderstood?
Had time proved to her that his love was worth more than the pleasures
the world could give her? Had it grown within her soul, whilst he had
sunk to brutish indifference?
At first it had seemed possible to refuse to see her; would it not
be fair reprisal for all that he had borne at her hands? Would it not
gratify his pride to coldly tell her that he saw no good end to be
gained by a personal interview? It needed another than himself to act
upon such a thought. Already he was preparing to go and see her. He
threw water upon his face to cool its burning. The fear now had become
lest his delay in answering her summons should have led her to conclude
that he would not answer it. With haste which only heightened his
nervousness, he completed his preparations, and went downstairs.
Fortunately he met no one; he could take his hat and leave by the
house-door unobserved.
The walk to the hotel was short. On reaching the entrance he had to turn
aside and go a little further on, that he might be able to use his voice
and present any appearance but that of a man under stress of violent
emotion. Between the door of the hotel and the private room to which
he was conducted, he knew nothing but the pain which came from the
throbbing at his temples and the rush of blood in his ears.
She stood at the farther end of the room, a dark object to him. She wore
a summer travelling dress, but of that he could take no note; her face
alone came out of the confused mist, and he saw that it was pale and
agitated. There was no joy in it; that he knew at once. None of the
old sweetness dwelt in her eyes and about her lips. She was austere,
fear-stricken.
“You have kept me long,” were her first words, and as she spoke them her
hand pressed upon her bosom. “I thought you would come at once.”
The sound of her speaking had the effect of a cold hand upon his
forehead. He saw with clear vision; the throbbing at his temples allayed
itself.
“Why are you here?” he asked. “Why have you sent for me?”
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