London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
“Who knows? We must wait and see.” Such an attitude as this went near
to excite Clement Gabriel’s contempt; he ceased to argue and plied his
pencil. The respect which Kingcote entertained for his strenuous friend
was now and then mingled with vexation that the latter should fall short
in finer sympathies; and Gabriel, though he liked Kingcote’s company,
could scarcely be said to respect him. He was conscious that the dreamer
saw visions and heard voices of a sphere whence there came no message to
himself, but he acknowledged the superiority grudgingly, and would
have asked to what end the revelations were made if Kingcote could
not translate them into one or other form of human art. With the least
strain of self-conceit in Kingcote, their friendship would have been at
an end long since.
It seemed as if indeed Kingcote had determined to wait upon Providence.
He had said to himself that he would vigorously turn to discovering an
occupation in life, as soon as he should have settled his sister in the
new home at Highgate; but the settlement was effected, and he did not
appear to be exerting himself. He bought newspapers, it is true, and
sickened his soul with the reading of advertisements, but it was seldom
indeed that anything presented itself which seemed in the least likely
to assist him. For it was not a temporary pursuit that he needed, but
a fixed station of recognisable activity; work, in fact, which would
enable him to stand before Isabel without shame when she was free to
fulfil her promise. He was not in immediate need, nor likely to be; the
capital which produced him sixty pounds a year would permit him to live
and support his sister for some time to come, with economy such as they
exercised. But it was idle to take comfort from that; practically he was
a beggar.
A more admirable housekeeper than Mary could not have been found. Long
experience of grinding poverty had taught her how to make a sovereign go
very far indeed; King-cote was astonished at the accounts with which she
regularly presented him. He would have had her increase her own comfort
in many little ways, but she always refused; self-denial, formerly a
harsh necessity, had now become a pleasure; a kind of asceticism was
becoming her motive in life. This, a common enough phenomenon, allied
itself with increased rigour in religious performances. Her brother’s
indifference in such matters was a distress to her, but she would not
have ventured to speak. Her gratitude to him was deep and fervent, but
Mary felt what a distance there was between him and herself. She could
love him as her heart desired, yet she was always hoping that time and
use might make them more like brother and sister.
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