But Alice was not happy. She had not been cleared. She bought and
dispersed Bibles, contributed more money to the plate, contralto’d
gloriously in all the hymns, but would not tell her soul. In vain Abel
Ah Yo wrestled with her. She would not go down on her knees at the
penitent form and voice the things of tarnish within her—the ill things
of good friends of the old days. “You cannot serve two masters,” Abel Ah
Yo told her. “Hell is full of those who have tried. Single of heart and
pure of heart must you make your peace with God. Not until you tell your
soul to God right out in meeting will you be ready for redemption. In
the meantime you will suffer the canker of the sin you carry about within
you.”
Scientifically, though he did not know it and though he continually
jeered at science, Abel Ah Yo was right. Not could she be again as a
child and become radiantly clad in God’s grace, until she had eliminated
from her soul, by telling, all the sophistications that had been hers,
including those she shared with others. In the Protestant way, she must
bare her soul in public, as in the Catholic way it was done in the
privacy of the confessional. The result of such baring would be unity,
tranquillity, happiness, cleansing, redemption, and immortal life.
“Choose!” Abel Ah Yo thundered. “Loyalty to God, or loyalty to man.”
And Alice could not choose. Too long had she kept her tongue locked with
the honour of man. “I will tell all my soul about myself,” she
contended. “God knows I am tired of my soul and should like to have it
clean and shining once again as when I was a little girl at Kaneohe—”
“But all the corruption of your soul has been with other souls,” was Abel
Ah Yo’s invariable reply. “When you have a burden, lay it down. You
cannot bear a burden and be quit of it at the same time.”
“I will pray to God each day, and many times each day,” she urged. “I
will approach God with humility, with sighs and with tears. I will
contribute often to the plate, and I will buy Bibles, Bibles, Bibles
without end.”
“And God will not smile upon you,” God’s mouthpiece retorted. “And you
will remain weary and heavy-laden. For you will not have told all your
sin, and not until you have told all will you be rid of any.”
“This rebirth is difficult,” Alice sighed.
“Rebirth is even more difficult than birth.” Abel Ah Yo did anything but
comfort her. “‘Not until you become as a little child . . . ’”
“If ever I tell my soul, it will be a big telling,” she confided.
“The bigger the reason to tell it then.”
And so the situation remained at deadlock, Abel Ah Yo demanding absolute
allegiance to God, and Alice Akana flirting on the fringes of paradise.
“You bet it will be a big telling, if Alice ever begins,” the
beach-combing and disreputable _kamaainas_ (old-timers) gleefully told
one another over their Palm Tree gin.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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