“‘Dear Bella,’ Uncle John would say; and I knew his heart was tender for
me. Thank God, he never told me to be patient. He knew. He was very
wise. He was warm human, and, therefore, wiser than Uncle Robert and
George Castner, who sought the thing, not the spirit, who kept records in
ledgers rather than numbers of heart-beats breast to breast, who added
columns of figures rather than remembered embraces and endearments of
look and speech and touch. ‘Dear Bella,’ Uncle John would say. He knew.
You have heard always how he was the lover of the Princess Naomi. He was
a true lover. He loved but the once. After her death they said he was
eccentric. He was. He was the one lover, once and always. Remember
that taboo inner room of his at Kilohana that we entered only after his
death and found it his shrine to her. ‘Dear Bella,’ it was all he ever
said to me, but I knew he knew.
“And I was nineteen, and sun-warm Hawaiian in spite of my three-quarters
_haole_ blood, and I knew nothing save my girlhood splendours at Kilohana
and my Honolulu education at the Royal Chief School, and my grey husband
at Nahala with his grey preachments and practices of sobriety and thrift,
and those two childless uncles of mine, the one with far, cold vision,
the other the broken-hearted, for-ever-dreaming lover of a dead princess.
“Think of that grey house! I, who had known the ease and the delights
and the ever-laughing joys of Kilohana, and of the Parkers at old Mana,
and of Puuwaawaa! You remember. We did live in feudal spaciousness in
those days. Would you, can you, believe it, Martha—at Nahala the only
sewing machine I had was one of those the early missionaries brought, a
tiny, crazy thing that one cranked around by hand!
“Robert and John had each given Husband George five thousand dollars at
my marriage. But he had asked for it to be kept secret. Only the four
of us knew. And while I sewed my cheap _holokus_ on that crazy machine,
he bought land with the money—the upper Nahala lands, you know—a bit at a
time, each purchase a hard-driven bargain, his face the very face of
poverty. To-day the Nahala Ditch alone pays me forty thousand a year.
“But was it worth it? I starved. If only once, madly, he had crushed me
in his arms! If only once he could have lingered with me five minutes
from his own business or from his fidelity to his employers! Sometimes I
could have screamed, or showered the eternal bowl of hot porridge into
his face, or smashed the sewing machine upon the floor and danced a
_hula_ on it, just to make him burst out and lose his temper and be
human, be a brute, be a man of some sort instead of a grey, frozen
demi-god.”
Bella’s tragic expression vanished, and she laughed outright in sheer
genuineness of mirthful recollection.
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