Israel Rank : $b The autobiography of a criminalHorniman, Roy
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Israel Rank : $b The autobiography of a criminal
Horniman, Roy
Criminals -- Fiction; Detective and mystery stories; Humorous stories
Billy Statham was certainly not colourless. He was gay, emotional, and
beautiful as morning. He was brilliant and indolent. In many ways he
seemed to be the most backward boy in the school, but to accuse him of
being ignorant would have been preposterous. I never knew him tell a
lie, and I never knew him do a dishonest thing; and yet once when a
boy in the school who had been discovered in a flagrant piece of
dishonesty was by general agreement sent to Coventry, Billy Statham
was the one person who treated him as if nothing had happened. I
really think his was the most Christ-like nature I have ever met. He
always seemed to hold on to the intangible something in people which
is above earthly stains. Evil had at times a bewildering effect on
him. I have seen him look quite blank—when a curious look of wonder
did not come into his face—as other boys were discussing matters which
properly belonged to a more adult stage. The impending complexities of
sex into which the other lads were always taking surreptitious peeps
attracted him not at all. It seemed as if he must have possessed some
inward consciousness that his body would never be called upon to take
part in the sterner struggle. When he was fourteen he contracted
rheumatic fever, and was returned to us after a few months with the
roses blanched from his cheeks and the consciousness of a weak heart.
One day he told me that he had heard the doctor say to his parents
that if he had rheumatic fever again he would die. On a damp afternoon
in late autumn we were caught in a heavy downpour and I left him at
his front door shivering. I did not see him alive again, and I have
never known boys so profoundly moved by the death of one of their
number. It seemed as if they realised that something spiritual and
valuable had gone from them in their corporate capacity. He left
behind him the recollection of a nature entirely unspoilt.
To me his death was a profound grief. I have never experienced so
great a friendship for anyone since. At the time, I was unable to
understand why he chose me as his Jonathan, excepting that, as I have
already said, he had the instinct of great minds for grasping the
essentials in human nature and allowing a man’s actions to remain a
matter of opinion. He seldom argued with me. He was content to
influence, and in this he displayed another trait of great natures,
which let fall here and there a truth, but are not prone to
discussion. I have often thought that he might have been the remnant
of a great consciousness, having somewhat, but not a great deal, to
expiate in human form. His goodness seemed to stretch out, invisible,
beyond himself.
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