Jan of the Windmill: A Story of the PlainsEwing, Juliana Horatia
Philosophy
Jan of the Windmill: A Story of the Plains
Ewing, Juliana Horatia
Boys -- Juvenile fiction; Country life -- England -- Juvenile fiction
“It’s a very selfish kind of goodness at present, Mr. Swift, and I fancy
some day the obligation of the acquaintance will be on my side.”
“Jan,” said the schoolmaster, “take Rufus wi’ ye, and run that errand I
telled ye. Rufus’ll carry your basket.” When they had gone, he turned
earnestly to the painter.
“Sir, I’m speaking to ye out of my ignorance and my anxiety. Ye want the
lad to be a painter. Will he be a great painter? I’m reminding you of
what ye’ll know better than me (though not by yourself, for Jan tells me
you’re a grand artist), that a man may have the ambition and the love,
and some talent for an art, and yet be just without that divine spark
which the gods withhold. Sir, GOD forbid that I should undervalue the
pure pleasure of even that little gift; but it’s ill for a lad when he
has just that much of an art to keep him from a thrifty trade—and _no
more_.”
The painter replied as earnestly as Master Swift had spoken,—
“Jan’s estimate of me is weaker than his judgment in art is wont to be.
I speak to understanding ears, and you will know that I have some true
feeling for my art, when I tell you that I know enough to know that I
shall never be a great painter; and it will help you to put confidence in
my assurance that, if he lives, _Jan will_.”
Deep emotion kept the old man silent. It was a mixed feeling,—first,
intense pride and pleasure, and then a pang of disappointment. Had he
not been the first to see genius in the child? Had he not built upon him
one more ambition for himself,—the ambition of training the future great
man? And now another had taken his office.
“You look disappointed,” said the artist.
“It is the vile selfishness in me, sir. I had hoped the boy’s gifts
would have been what I could have trained at my own hearth. It is only
one more wilful fancy, once more thwarted.”
“Selfish I am sure it is not!” said the painter, hotly; “and as to such
benevolence being thwarted as a sort of punishment for I don’t know what,
I believe nothing of the kind.”
“You don’t know, sir,” said the old man, firmly. “Not that I’m speaking
of the Lord’s general dealings. There are tender, gentle souls, I know
well, who seem only to grow the purer and better for having the desire of
their eyes granted to them; but there are others whom, for their own
good, the Father of all sees needful to chasten to the end.”
“My experience lies in another direction,” said the painter, impetuously.
“With what awe do you suppose indolent men, whose easy years of
self-indulgent life have been broken by no real calamity, look upon
others on whose heads blow falls after blow, though their existence is an
hourly struggle towards perfection? There are some stagnant pools whose
peace the Angel never disturbs. Does GOD, who takes pleasure in
perfecting the saint and pardoning the sinner, forget some of us because
we are not worth remembering?”
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