I see nothing but a narrow selfishness; sentiments of fear degrading to
the Deity; a bigotry that contracts the view, that freezes the heart, that
shuts up the avenues to benevolent and generous feeling. This buckram
stiffness does not suit me. Out upon such monastic parade! I will have
none of it.
But then, it seems, there is danger to ourselves from such attempts. In
trying to save another from drowning, may we not sometimes be drawn in
ourselves? Are we not taught to deprecate, not only evil, but temptation
to evil?
What madness, to trust our convictions, in a point of such immense
importance, to the contest of argument with one of superior subtlety and
knowledge! Is there not presumption in such a trust?
Excellent advice is this to the mass of women; to those to whom habit
or childish fear or parental authority has given their faith; who never
doubted or inquired or reasoned for themselves. How easily is such a
fabric to be overturned! It can only stand by being never blown upon. The
least breath disperses it in air; the first tide washes it away.
Now, I entertain no reverence for such a bubble. In some sense, the
religion of the timorous and uninquisitive is true. In another sense it is
false. Considering the proofs on which it reposes, it is false, since it
merely originates in deference to the opinions of others, wrought into
belief by means of habit. It is on a level, as to the proof which supports
it, with the wildest dreams of savage superstition, or the fumes of a
dervise's fanaticism.
As to me, I was once just such a pretty fool in this respect as the
rest of my sex. I was easily taught to regard religion not only as the
safeguard of every virtue, but even as the test of a good understanding.
The name of _infidel_ was never mentioned but with abhorrence or
contempt. None but a profligate, a sensualist, a ruffian, could
disbelieve. Unbelief was a mere suggestion of the grand deceiver, to
palliate or reconcile us to the unlimited indulgence of our appetites and
the breach of every moral duty. Hence it was never steadfast or sincere.
An adverse fortune or a death-bed usually put an end to the illusion.
Thus I grew up, never beset by any doubts, never venturing on inquiry.
My knowledge of you put an end to this state of superstitious ignorance.
In you I found, not one that disbelieved, but one that doubted. In all
your demeanour there was simplicity and frankness. You concealed not your
sentiments; you obtruded them not upon my hearing. When called upon to
state the history of your opinions, it was candidly detailed; with no view
of gaining my concurrence, but merely to gratify my curiosity.
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