Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
"Now that it’s over, and the mist blown clear of your path forever, I
want to confess to you how dreadfully I felt to see you here in such a
capacity. More than that, your light talk about the arts, your light
and graceful accomplishments in them, your tendency to drift back toward
a career for which you are no more fitted than I—all these things
troubled me deeply, so that, sometimes, I even dreamed of them, and
finally came to regard your facility with actual fear, so jealous was I
for your real career, so anxious was I that you should become your real
self.
"I suppose you will scarcely believe it, Jim, when I tell you that this
feeling began from the very moment when you offered to go with Silvette
and me to Adriutha. Somehow, blindly, I understood even then that it
was not the thing for you to do; and, remember, I knew you scarcely at
all.
"Yet my instinct resented your going, and if I did not actually protest,
perhaps you may recollect that my attitude was not cordial; that you had
to ask me many times for my vote; that, after all, I never cast it, but
simply refrained from voting at all.
"I suppose this was cowardly in me; yet, Jim, what else could I have
done? I scarcely knew you; I dared not appear ungrateful after your
kindness to Silvette and to me.
"Forgive this self-defense. I merely wanted you to know; I only wish
you to understand that, at heart anyway, I have been, from the
beginning, loyal to the best interests of a friend and a kinsman who was
most kind to two girls alone in the world."
"This is a still, golden, autumn world—autumn no longer, alas! for we
are already well along in November. But autumn lingers in this land of
hills and waters, and the frost was not severe enough to blacken the
late roses. If the weather is unseasonable, it is also charming, and I
love it. Russet and gold always did fascinate me—like the hangings and
tapestries in your studio, with the dusty sunlight falling over all.
"Eh bien, monsieur, I must conclude my monologue. You are a brave man
if you have read as far as the name you gave me once—centuries ago.
"JAPONETTE."
She closed and sealed her letter, wrote his name on the envelope, rested
awhile, blue eyes seeing nothing; then, touching the envelope with her
lips, she laid it between the leaves of her portfolio.
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