Adultery -- Fiction; Artists -- Fiction; Illegitimate children -- Fiction; Painters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
When Jenny got tired she lay down by the fence, looking up at the sky and
out over the bay; she could not stand for long at a time, but it made her
only more eager. Two small pictures painted from the fence were finished,
and she was pleased with them; a third one she painted in the village,
where the low whitewashed houses with thatched roofs almost covering the
windows, and climbing roses and dahlias in the gardens, stood along a
velvety green ditch, and a red brick church stretched its gabled tower
above the foliage of the vicarage garden. But it made her nervous when
people came to look at her, and flaxen-haired youngsters clustered round
her when she was painting. When the picture was finished she moved with
her easel again to the stone fence.
In October the rain came, pouring down for a week or two. Now and again
the skies cleared a little, letting out a sickly yellow ray of light
between the clouds over the hill with the pitiable willows, and the
puddles in the road lay shining a little while before the rain troubled
their surface again.
Jenny borrowed Mrs. Rasmussen’s books and learnt to knit the kind of
lace that bordered her curtains, but neither reading nor knitting came
to much. She sat in the rocking-chair by the window all day long, not
even caring to dress properly, only wearing her old faded kimono. As her
condition became more and more apparent she suffered agonies.
Gert Gram had written to say he was coming to see her, and two days later
he arrived, driving up in the early morning in pouring rain. He stayed
a week, putting up at the railway hotel two miles from the village, but
spending all his time with her. When he left he promised to come again
soon—possibly in six weeks.
Jenny lay awake all night with her lamp burning. She knew she could
not bear it again; it had been too awful. Everything was unbearable
from the moment he arrived—his first worried, compassionate glance
when he saw her—dressed in a new navy blue straight frock made by the
village dressmaker. “How lovely you are,” he said, and declared she was
like a madonna. Madonna, indeed! His arm placed cautiously round her
waist, his long, guarded kiss on her forehead, made her feel as if she
could die of shame. And how he had worried her with his concern about
her health and his advice about taking enough exercise. One day when
the rain stopped he dragged her for a long walk, insisting that she
should hang on his arm for support. One evening he had looked at her
needlework—stealthily—expecting probably that she would be hemming baby
linen. He meant it all so kindly, and there was no hope of a change for
the better when he would come again—more likely the reverse; she simply
could not endure it.
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