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The blood spurted out, hitting a small water-colour on the wall above
her bed. Noticing it, she moved her hand. She lay down on the bed and
mechanically pushed off her shoes with her feet, and put her hand under
the cover to prevent the blood from making a mess.
She did not think; she was not afraid; she felt only that she was
surrendering to the inevitable. The pain of the cut was not great—only
sharp and distinct, and concentrated on one spot.
After a while a strange, unknown sensation took hold of her, an agony
that grew and grew—not a fear of anything in particular, but the feeling
of an ache round her heart and sickness, as it were. She opened her eyes,
but black specks flickered before her sight and she could not breathe.
The room seemed to crumble down on her. She tumbled out of bed, tore the
door open, rushed up the stairs to the roof, and collapsed on the last
step.
Helge had met Gunnar Heggen as he came out of the front door. They had
looked at each other, both touching their hats, and passed on without a
word.
That meeting had sobered Helge. After the intoxication of the night his
mood instantly changed to the other extreme, and what he had experienced
seemed to him incredible, inconceivable, and monstrous.
He had dreamt of this meeting with her all these years. She, the queen
of his dreams, had scarcely spoken to him, at first sitting quiet and
cold and then suddenly throwing herself into his arms, wild, mad, without
saying a word. It struck him now that she had said nothing—nothing at all
to his words of love in the night. A strange, appalling woman, his Jenny.
He realized suddenly that she had never been his.
Helge walked about in the quiet streets, up and down the Corso. He tried
to think of her as she had been when they were engaged, to separate the
dreams from the reality, but he could not form a clear picture of her,
and he realized that he had never penetrated to the bottom of her soul.
There had always been something about her he could not see, though he
felt it was there.
He did not really know anything about her. Heggen might be with her
now—why not? There had been another—she said so herself—who? How many
more? What else that he did not know—but had always felt?...
And now—after this he could not leave her; he knew it—less than ever now.
Yet he did not know her. Who was she, who had held him in a spell for
three years—who had this power over him?
He turned on his way, hurrying back to her door, driven by fear and by
rage. The front door stood open. He rushed up the stairs—she would have
to answer him—tell him everything—he would not let her go. The door was
open; he looked in and saw the empty bed with the blood-stained sheets
and the blood on the floor. Turning round, he saw that she was lying
huddled at the top of the stairs, and that the marble steps were red with
her blood.
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