But the curtain went up in due time, and Mr. Bennett Godsby, also in due
time, went on to receive the applause of his friends in his dual
capacity of author and actor. Jimmy knew nothing of what was happening;
he could only guess, as he paced about outside, that this part of the
play had been reached, or that part; he knew that an act was over and
another begun when men in caps came tumbling out of the stage door, and
adjourned hurriedly to a neighbouring public-house. Then Jimmy ventured
inside again.
But he was not alone that night in his anxiety; there was someone else
who counted the hours, and wondered what was happening; someone who,
like Jimmy, but for a different reason, could have no sight of the
proceedings. Although Jimmy did not know it then, and was not to know it
until long, long afterwards, Moira had counted the days, and then the
hours; knew to a moment when the curtain was to rise; guessed almost to
a moment when it might fall again, and Jimmy's fate be known. And it was
her fate to stand outside, bitterly enough, and to see nothing.
She had not seen Jimmy since that night when she had gone to his rooms,
and had told him of herself and Charlie; that night she was so often to
remember, when she had seen him sitting in the circle of light from his
lamp; that night when the merciful darkness of the room had hidden her
tears. But she had thought about him often and often; had once, on a
little foolish impulse, put a common newspaper to her lips when she was
alone, because it spoke of him kindly and wished him well. Charlie knew
nothing of that; Charlie stood outside, as another part of her
life--something Jimmy did not touch.
Yet there had been a faint hope in her mind that she might have seen the
play--might have been present at Jimmy's triumph--for to imagine him
failing was impossible, she felt. More than that, there was in the girl
this night that strong, fine feeling--half the feeling of motherhood
almost--that made her feel she would have liked to take him in her arms,
and whisper words of comfort and of hope to him. It never occurred to
Moira that there might be others to do that; it never seemed possible to
her that this was a new Jimmy, grown out of old ways, and leaving her
lightly and easily enough to Charlie. To-night at least Jimmy--her
Jimmy!--stood alone, as it seemed to her, and she only understood from
what he had come, and what struggles he had had, before his name could
shine out before men as it did now. She wanted to tell him all this;
wanted to be somewhere near him--and yet quite secretly--so that at the
last crucial moment he might understand that she knew what he felt, and
that she was with him in his fight.
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