Meanwhile Moira had gone on, making straight for the theatre. Almost at
that time she was obsessed with the idea that Jimmy wanted her; that on
this night of all other nights he was lonely, even in the midst of his
success, and that he called to her. Wind nor gusts of rain mattered
anything to her then; it was Jimmy who called--Jimmy of whom she was
proud; Jimmy whom she loved at this moment as she had never loved him
before. In this hour her heart, so long held in check and starved within
her, woke and cried for him, as a child, waking from some uneasy dream
in the night, cries out for the touch of love--the sweet whisper of love
to calm and soothe its fears. Jimmy in a blaze of glory in the lighted
theatre was nothing to her then; her soul went out to the Jimmy of the
woods and the fields of her childhood. Through the streets of that
London that had taken them both into its cruel arms, and made of them
what it would, she went on to meet her Jimmy.
She came to the theatre, to find a crowd about it, and carriages and
cabs driving up in a long line. Only then did she realise that her
errand was a wrong one; that here was no place for her. She drew
back--poor shabby figure that she was--among those who waited in a line
at either side of the big doors to watch the carriage folk going in. And
then, for the first time, understood the bitterness of her position, as
she saw one bright girlish figure emerge from a carriage and flutter in
at the great doors. It was Alice.
Mr. and Mrs. Baffall came immediately afterwards, Mr. Baffall very much
out of place, and Mrs. Baffall but little more at ease. Peering through
the little crowd, Moira saw the girl greeting acquaintances
inside--almost heard the light ripple of her laughter. It wasn't
fair--it wasn't right that Jimmy should have forgotten. She drew back,
and got away from the crowd, and began to pace the streets again.
They would be taking their places now; Jimmy's play would be beginning.
Perhaps after all, she thought, she might contrive to get in; it would
be good to think that she might sit aloft somewhere and watch it, and
tell Jimmy about it afterwards. Yes--she would go in, although shillings
were hard to spare. She went round to a door in an alley, and mounted a
flight of stone steps; a man behind a little paybox window shook his
head at her.
"No good, miss; every seat gone, and not even standing room. Bless you,
they've been waiting 'ere for hours."
She turned away again, and went round again to the front of the theatre.
The last belated comers were hurrying in, and the crowd had gone; she
stood there helpless. Moving away a little, she came to a board hung
against the wall of the theatre; there in small print was Jimmy's name.
Glancing about her quickly, and seeing that she was alone, she softly
touched that name with her fingers, with infinite tenderness, before she
turned away.
"Jimmy," she said in a whisper, "you might have remembered, dear."
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