Now it was Jimmy, shut up, too, in this dreadful world of London
somewhere this night, and calling to her above all the roar of the
streets, and never making her hear. She closed her eyes again, and lay
with Jimmy on the warm earth, with the sun beating down upon them, and
only a whisper now and then passing between them--the very inmost kernel
of their thoughts. Moira had that moment seen a fairy flit across where
the sunlight lay in a path from tree to tree; and she whispered it to
Jimmy, who nodded in perfect understanding. Oh, God! the fairies in the
sunlight!
Now she rode again in Paul's arms in the old donkey-chaise, with the
Ancient One crawling home through the warm scented dusk of a summer
night; and Old Paul murmured tales to her that she knew by heart, but
yet could never hear too often; and she opened her eyes and blinked away
the tears, and saw always the lamp on the little table, and the woman
asleep in her chair.
There were, of course, summer mornings even in London--mornings when the
fresh young spirit of her, not to be quenched, rose exultant to the
sunlight, and craved for air and liberty. But even then the watchful
jealousy of Patience had to be reckoned with; she must not go far; she
must not stray in this direction nor in that. More often than not
Patience insisted on going with her; so that the spectacle was presented
of the white-faced girl going through the streets, guiding the slower
steps of the old woman. That was how she saw London, and how she knew it
for almost four long years.
It seems in a sense incredible; but it is strictly true. Even the people
in the same house with her knew nothing of her, and probably cared
nothing. She grew up in that bitter narrow environment; came to full
womanhood in the heart of the greatest city in the world; and yet knew
nothing of the life of the city or of the world at all. She dwelt always
in the past, this child of the dark eyes and the unclouded and untouched
heart; anything that she saw or heard in the streets through which she
passed with the old woman for company went by her, and left no trace.
Her necessarily lengthening frocks were lengthened by herself; whatever
small vanities sprang up in her, with the growth of her womanhood, were
caught deftly enough from the people she saw in the streets, and from
shop windows, and were imitated cheaply and dexterously. But the life of
loneliness did not change.
Once she escaped--and only once. She must have been nearly seventeen
when the chance came, and then it came and was gone before almost she
had had time to recover breath. It came in the strangest fashion, and it
woke within her something that made her half afraid of herself, even
while it filled her with strange delight.
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