East Anglia (England) -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
Her troubles were vulgar enough, poor girl: a scolding and coarse-minded aunt,
a suitor toward whom she had no longings, the constant jar of the talk and jest
of the ale-house where she lived, and the irk of some vague and half-understood
shame that clung to her closely as the ivy clung to the ruined tower above her.
Common though such woes be, they were yet sufficiently real to Joan—in
truth, their somewhat sordid atmosphere pressed with added weight upon a mind
which was not sordid. Those misfortunes that are proper to our station and
inherent to our fate we can bear, if not readily, at least with some show of
resignation: those that fall upon us from a sphere of which we lack experience,
or arise out of a temperament unsuited to its surroundings, are harder to
endure. To be different from our fellows, to look upwards where they look down,
to live inwardly at a mental level higher than our circumstances warrant, to
desire that which is too far from us, are miseries petty in themselves, but
gifted with Protean reproductiveness.
Put briefly, this was Joan’s position. Her parentage was a mystery, at
least so far as her father was concerned. Her mother was her aunt’s
younger sister; but she had never known this mother, whose short life closed
within two years of Joan’s birth. Indeed, the only tokens left to link
their existences together were a lock of soft brown hair and a faded photograph
of a girl not unlike herself, who seemed to have been beautiful. Her aunt, Mrs.
Gillingwater, gave her these mementos of the dead some years ago, saying, with
the brutal frankness of her class, that they were almost the only property that
her mother had left behind her, so she, the daughter, might as well take
possession of them.
Of this mother, however, there remained one other memento— a mound in the
churchyard of the Abbey, where until quite recently the inhabitants of
Ramborough had been wont to be laid to sleep beside their ancestors. This mound
Joan knew, for, upon her earnest entreaty, Mr. Gillingwater, her uncle by
marriage, pointed it out to her: indeed, she was sitting by it now. It had no
headstone, and when Joan asked him why, he replied that those who were neither
wife nor maid had best take their names with them six feet underground.
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