This letter I mailed and awaited, with what patience I could command,
her reply. Several days passed before I received any reply, and then I
got a short, little cool note saying that she was glad to see that I
felt an apology was due to her honored father, and was happy to know
that I was not the author of the outrageous headlines. It was an icy
little reply to a letter in which I had put my whole heart and I was in
a rage over it. I made up my mind that I would show her that I was not
to be treated so. If this was the way in which she received a
gentleman's full and frank amende, why, I would have no more to do with
her. Anger is a masterful passion. So long as it holds sway no other
inmate of the mind can enter. So long as I was angry I got on very well.
I enjoyed the society of my friends and was much gayer to outward
appearances than usual. I spent my evenings with Marvel and Wolffert or
some of my less intimate companions, treated myself and them to the
theatre, and made altogether a brave feint at bravery. But my anger died
out. I was deeply in love and I fell back into a slough of despond. I
thought often of confiding in John Marvel; but for some reason I could
not bring myself to do so.
Adam driven suddenly out of Paradise with Eve left behind to the
temptation of the serpent will give some idea of what I felt. I had the
consolation of knowing that I had done the right thing and the only
thing a gentleman could have done; but it was a poor consolation when I
looked back on the happiness I had been having of late in the presence
of Eleanor Leigh. And now between her and me was the flaming sword which
turned every way.
My heart gave a sudden drop into my boots one evening when I came across
an item in the society columns of an afternoon paper, stating that it
was believed by the friends of the parties, that Mr. Canter would,
before very long, lead to the altar one of the reigning belles of the
city. I had always disliked "Society Columns," as the expression of a
latter-day vulgarity. Since then I have detested them.
I finally determined to try to get an interview with her whose absence
clouded my world, and wrote her a note rather demanding one. As I
received no reply to this, I called one evening to see her, if possible.
The servant took in my card and a moment later returned with the
statement that Miss Leigh was not at home. I was sure that it was not
true. I came down the steps white with rage and also with a sinking of
the heart. For I felt that it was all over between us.
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