“I did not foresee it,” said Jonah.
“That is because you are ignorant,” said Naaman severely. “You do not
know the world, yet you wish to live in it.”
“No,” said Jonah, “that is not true. For such things do not happen to
everybody, or to other people. Why, love is holy, Naaman. It is as
though God had told a lie.”
“Be silent,” exclaimed Naaman harshly, “and do not blaspheme. Love
is not holy; and God does not lie. That alone is holy which concerns
itself with holy things. But love ... no, my son; it is pain and
impurity, it is violence and sorrow. The world of desire is the world
of demons, of concealment, of Sathariel which hides the face of mercy.”
Jonah regarded the old man with astonishment. “You are so bitter,” he
exclaimed; “I have never heard you speak in that tone before.”
Naaman peered off beneath his shaggy white eyebrows to the distant
hillside, swimming in the haze of summer heat. For a moment he did not
speak, but presently he said, sighing,
“You know but little of my life, my son. I, too, loved in my youth.
Does that surprise you? Yes, it is hard to imagine that old men have
ever been in love, swept by the flames of passion and of sorrow. And
sometimes it is hard for the old to remember how it goes with the young
men, with their joy, and their pain.
“I, too, was young like you, Jonah. Do you think your heart is the
first to break? Other hearts have broken before; and other men have
wept, as you are weeping. I know; for I, too, wept, Jonah, my son.”
He was silent. Jonah took the old man’s trembling hand between his two
brown palms. “I am sorry,” he said. And he remained respectfully silent.
“But, Naaman,” he broke out at last, “what then is holy here on earth?”
Naaman replied gently and inexorably, “My son, the love of earth is
holy, the love that God bears the least of His creatures, without
desire, without envy, and without malice. That mercy and generosity
with which the sun warms and the soil nourishes its flowers and trees,
is holy; all that gives of itself, without reason, without measure, and
without return. For that is the way of God; it is the way of the One,
from which all things spring, to which all things return. Go back to
the desert, Jonah; go back to the desert, and learn that God is One,
and that His love is holy.”
But Jonah did not understand him. “Yes,” he said. “I shall go back
to the desert, because that is all I can do. But I shall have no
happiness, Naaman; my heart will never be at peace again. There is no
beauty in the world for me now, ever. Oh, Naaman,” he cried suddenly,
clasping his hands together, “if God loves His creatures, how can He
make them suffer so?”
Naaman looked sadly at the young prophet whose face was hidden from
him. “Must you have beauty, too, Jonah?” he asked.
“Yes,” said Jonah.
Rising to his feet, he added, “You do not know what it is to love and
to be unhappy.”
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