Lenz's heart sunk within him, at hearing himself quoted as the most striking example of a man completely ruined; he little thought ever to have won such a reputation as that. He strove to persuade Proebler that it was no use first to yield to evil courses, and then to exclaim:--"See, world, what you have made me! Don't you repent it?" He endeavoured to point out to Proebler, that no one has any right to expect the world to do for you, what you ought to do for yourself. A man must preserve his self respect was the idea uppermost in Lenz at this moment, but Proebler would not listen to him; he took a knife from his pocket, and another from the table, and thrust them both into Lenz's hand, saying wildly:-- "There you have got both knives; I can do you no harm, I don't want to do you any harm: say it out at once, if I am not now a wretched ragamuffin, and if I should not have been good for something if I had a helping hand in the world. Your father-in-law--may the devil weigh him one day, fairly, ounce by ounce in his scale!--has smeared his creaking boots with my life's blood, and a fine polish it made! Say it out--what am I?" Lenz, of course, acknowledged that Proebler would have been a master mind if he had kept the straight path. Proebler struck the table with his clenched fist from joy. Lenz had considerable difficulty in preventing his embracing him. "I don't want any other funeral sermon, Lenz has preached mine; and now say no more, let us drink away as hard as we can." Proebler continued to talk wildly, though sometimes a clear thought flashed through his wandering brain. It was not easy to ascertain whether it was truth or a mere delusion, that he had lost his small savings set aside against the evil day, through the Landlord's ruin, or whether it was the sale of the mysterious work, for which he had expected a patent, that had reduced him to this state of desperation. Lenz felt quite faint and oppressed by the close atmosphere of the room, and the clamour, and tumult, and his hair stood on end when he saw before his eyes, a living example of the degradation to which a man can sink, who has lost self respect, and whose only resource is to forget himself if possible. "Your mother had a good saying," said Proebler--"Did I tell you that this is Lenz of the Morgenhalde?--Yes! Your mother! 'It is better to go barefooted than to wear torn boots,' she always said. Do you know what that means? I have another saying however--'When the horse is taken to the knacker's yard, his shoes are first pulled off.' A tavern--that is an iron shoe! Wine here!" cried Proebler, throwing a dollar on the table. This mention of his mother's name, and her being alluded to at all, even in so strange a way, seemed a warning to Lenz, as if her eye had been sternly fixed on him.