A band of music from Philadelphia assisted to make all agreeable and to crown the whole the eloquence of Demosthenes was heared in almost every mans mouth, so that the person who spoke last was always the hero of the tale--O murder! what shall I do I want to say a great deal to you but cannot for the girls who are almost distracting my heart--O murder! murder, murder I say what will become of me, murder, murder--I shall go distracted--I saw Dr Beaty[40] and Betsy--I gave your love to them--and indeed to tell you the truth I could not for my life help leaving my own heart, and love, and all with Besy--she is realy a sweet soul. I wish ten millions and she were mine, I should be a happy creature, happy indeed to the last degree--. I got cleverly up from cohansie early in the evening--My love ten thousand times and ten thousand kisses to all the girls of my acquaintance. [40] Dr. John Beatty had been graduated at the College of New Jersey in 1769. Cf. Williams, ed., _Fithian_, p. 90, fn. 1. I cannot quit but must WILLM R. SMITH. [JOURNAL] _Wednesday. Octob. 6._ Walked with _Paterson_, after Breakfast to Mr _Hunters_, where we met with Mr _Smith_, & Mr _Irwin_ two young Clergimen, & Mr Hunter Junr. They came down yesterday, & inform that the Commencement was the most splendid, & honoured with the greatest Number of Strangers of any one, perhaps, since it was founded, May it still increase, & long flourish!--Immediately after Dinner _Smith_ & _Irwin_ set off for _Cape-May_--Andrew brings me Word that I must by the twentieth of this Month meet Mr _Imlay_ in New-Castle, who is going down into Virginia. And I must at last, away--The thought is indeed hard! _Thursday Octob: 7._ Slept but little last Night; my Mind seems troubled and involuntarily disturbs me! Rose early--After Breakfast rode to Deerfield. Settled all my Affairs, & took a formal, final Leave of my Friends, & Relations there! Rode home in the Evening. By the State I received a Letter from Mr _McCalla_,[41] with a Suit of _Cloths_. Cost £6/16/6. Expence in the Evening for a Bowl of _Punch_ 1/6-- [41] John McCalla, Jr., was a friend of Fithian who lived in Philadelphia. _Fryday Octob: 8._ To Day is the Fast before our Sacrament--O that the mighty God would teach me true Humiliation for my many Sin's, & give me Grace that shall enable me to hate & forsake them!--Grace to keep me right in the Path of Life, & to guide me to his heavenly Kingdom.--Mr Hunter preached two useful Sermons, describing worthy, & unworthy Communicants-- _Saturday October 9._ Rode to the _Bridge_, & bought a Saddle, Bridle, Spurrs, &c. for my intended Journey--Returned before Evening, & of Saml Dennis bought a Pr of Sadle-Bags.-- [Illustration: Lone rider on horse] _Monday Octob: 11._ By Six up--Busy in Preparing for my Journey--Agreed with Uncle for his Horse; I am to give him 25£.--The Money to be paid in May next.