He clapped his hands to his ears, trying to shut out the whisper. He kept shaking his head, but it came through like a heavy surf. He sat tense, trembling, with salty droplets pouring down his face, shaking his head helplessly-- You're caught now, the voice whispered. This is a one-way ride, and you know it, and you're _scared_-- "_I'm not!_" The earphones clicked. "You say something, Scotty?" Scotty took a deep breath, unclenching his hands. "No, no--nothing. What's the Zero-count, Mitch?" "Zero minus sixteen minutes. Everything set?" "All set. I wish we could get going." Scotty twisted on the couch, feeling the silence close down around him like a stifling blanket. He was almost shouting to himself. All right, I'm scared! Wouldn't anybody be scared? Sitting here, waiting, thinking about two hundred thousand miles of nothing with a rocky world of death at the other end to land on? Why shouldn't I be scared? They can stay back here, and track me with their scopes and radar--it's fine for them. It's fine for the Secretary of Defense, too--no skin off his back if something happens. And the big boys in Hollywood can sit back at their desks and rub their fat hands together and hope their cameras work all right, hope the pictures come out good, so they can make their pile, _if I get back_. Big gamble for them. FIRST MOON PICTURES RELEASED--SEE MAN'S GREATEST ADVENTURE IN GLORIOUS TECHNICOLOR--AUTHENTIC FILMS FROM THE FIRST MOON ROCKET--PRICES ONLY SLIGHTLY ADVANCED. Big gamble. Those films will help pay for a lot of fuel, a lot of metal and man-hours spent on this ship-- But can it pay for a life? * * * * * Bitterness swept through Scotty's mind, sharply. It was _his_ life they were bartering, _he_ was to be the star of those films--dead or alive. He could be killed in the blast-off, and the films would keep rolling, keep churning out the yardage, and thirty years later they could pick up the film and still make their nice safe pile--thirty years of cold death for him-- But why are you whining now, little man? Why all the tears, all of a sudden? You asked for it. You made your bed, right from scratch. You wanted to be the hero, nothing else would do. Well, here you are, Hero. Tough. You asked for it-- But _why_?