It was all very bewildering, very big, very curious; but if I protested
that it merely meant a return to the unreasoning superstitious days of
Nature Magic, there was something in me at the same time that realised
vital, forgotten truth behind it all. Cleansed and scientific, Julius
urged, it must return into the world again. What men formerly knew by
feeling, an age now coming would justify and demonstrate by brain and
reason. Touch with the universe would be restored. We should go back to
Nature for peace and power and progress. Scientific worship would be
known.
Yet by worship he meant not merely kneeling before an Ideal and praying
eagerly to resemble it; but approaching a Power and acquiring it. What
heat in itself may be we do not know; only that without it we collapse
into inert particles. What lies behind, beyond the physicist’s account
of air as a gas, remains unknown; deprived of it, however, we cease to
breathe and be conscious in matter. Each moment we feel the sun, take
in the air, we live; and the more we accomplish this union, the more we
are alive. In addition to these physical achievements, however, their
essential activities could be known and acquired spiritually. And the
means was that worship which is union--feeling-with.
To Julius this achievement was a literal one. The elements were an
expression of spiritual powers. To be in touch with them was to be
in touch with a Whole in which the Earth or Sirius are, after all,
but atoms. Moreover, it was a conscious Whole. In atoms themselves he
found life too. Chemical affinity involved intelligence. Certain atoms
refuse to combine with certain other atoms, they are hostile to each
other; while others rush headlong into each other’s arms. How do the
atoms know?
Here lay hints of powers he sought to reclaim for human use and human
help and human development.
“For they were known once,” he would cry. “We knew them, you and I.
Their nature is not realised to-day; consciousness has lost touch
with them. We recall a broken fragment, but label it superstition,
ignorance, and the like. And, being incomplete, these remnants of
necessity seem childish. Their meaning cannot come through the brain,
and that other mode of consciousness which understood has left us now.
The world, pursuing a lesser ideal, denies its forgotten greatness with
a sneer!”
A great deal of this he said to me one day while we were walking home
from church, whose “service” had stirred him into vehement and eager
utterance. His language was very boyish, and yet it seemed to me that I
listened to someone quite as old as Dr. Randall, the Headmaster who had
preached. I can see the hedges, wet and shining after rain; the dull
November sky; ploughed fields and muddy lanes. I can hear again the
plover calling above the hill. Nothing could possibly have been more
uninspiring than the dreary hop-poles, the moist, depressing air, the
leafless elms, and the “Sunday feeling” amid which the entire scene was
laid.
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