Past, present, and future seemed strangely intermingled as I heard, for
my thoughts went groping forward, and at the same time diving backwards
among desert sands and temples. The passion of an immense love-story
caught me; I was aware of intense yearning to resume my place in it
all with him, with her, with all the reconstructed conditions of
relationships so ancient and so true. It swept over me like a storm
unchained. That scene in the cool and sunless crypt flamed forth again,
reality in each smallest detail. The meaning of his words I did not
wholly grasp, however; there was something lacking in my mind of
To-day that withheld the final clue. My present consciousness was not
as then. From brain and reason all this seemed so utterly divorced, and
I had forgotten how to understand by _feeling_ in the way that Julius
did. Those last words, however, brought a sudden question to my lips.
Almost unconsciously I gave it utterance:
“Through the channel of a body?” I asked, and my voice was lower than
his own.
“Through the channel of a human system,” was his answer, “an organism
that uses consciously both heat and air, and that, therefore, knows the
nature of them both. For the Powers can be summoned only by those who
understand them; and understanding, being worship, depends ultimately
upon _sharing_ their natures, though it be in little.”
There came a welcome break, then, in the strain of this extraordinary
conversation, as Julius, using no bridge to transpose our emotions
from one key to the other, walked quietly over to the cupboard. It was
characteristically significant of his attitude to life in general,
that the solemn things we had been speaking of were yet no more sacred
than the prosaic detail of to-day that now concerned him--a student’s
supper. All was “one” to him in this rare but absolutely genuine way.
He was unconscious of any break in the emotional level of what had
been--for him there was, indeed, no break--and, watching him, it almost
seemed that I still saw that other figure of long ago striding across
the granite, sun-drenched slabs.
The voice rose unbidden within me, choked by the stress of some
inexplicable emotion:
“Concerighé...!” I cried aloud involuntarily; “Concerighé ... Ziaz....
We are all together still ... my help is yours ... my unfailing
help....”
Julius, loaf and marmalade jar in hand, turned from the cupboard as
though he had been struck. For a moment he stood and stared. The
customary expression melted from his face, and in its place a look of
tenderest compassion shone through the strength.
“You do remember, then!” he said very softly; “even the names!”
“And Silvatela,” I murmured, moisture rising unaccountably to my eyes.
I saw the room in mist.
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