Julius stood before me like a figure carved in stone. For a long
time he spoke no word. Gradually the curious disturbance in my own
breast sank and passed. The mist lifted and disappeared. I felt myself
slipping back into To-day on the ebb of some shattering experience,
already half forgotten.
“You remember,” he repeated presently, his voice impassioned but firmly
quiet, “the temptation--and--the failure...?”
I nodded, almost involuntarily again.
“And still hold to you--both,” I murmured.
He held me with his eyes for quite a minute. Though he used no word or
gesture, I felt his deep delight.
“Because we must,” he answered presently; “because we must.”
He had moved so close to me that I felt his breath upon my face. I
could have sworn for a second that I gazed into the shining eyes of
that other and audacious figure, for it was the voice of Concerighé,
yet the face of Julius. Past and present seemed to join hands, mingling
confusedly in my mind. Cause and effect whispered across the centuries,
linking us together. And the voice continued deeply, as if echoing down
hollow aisles of stone.
I heard the words in the shadowy spaces of that old-world crypt, rather
than among the plush furniture of these Edinburgh lodgings.
“We three are at last together again, and must bring the Balance to a
final close. As the stars are but dust upon the pathway of the gods, so
our mistakes are but dust upon the pathway of our lives. What we let
fall together, we must together remove.”
Then, with an abruptness that pertained sometimes to these curious
irruptions from the past, the values shifted. He became more and more
the Julius LeVallon whom I knew to-day. Speech changed to a modern
and more usual key. And the effect upon myself was of vague relief,
for while the impression of great drama did not wholly pass, the
uneasiness lightened in me, and I found my tongue again. I told my
own experience--all that I had seen and felt and thought. Brewing the
cocoa, and setting out the bread and marmalade upon the table, Julius
listened to every word without interruption. Our intimacy was complete
again as though no separation, either of lives or days, had been
between us.
“Inside me, of course,” I concluded the recital; “in some kind of
interior sight I saw it all----”
“The only true sight,” he declared, “though what you saw was but the
reflection at second-hand of memories I evoked in there.” He pointed to
the inner room. “In there,” he went on significantly, “where nothing
connected with the Present enters, no thought, no presence, nothing
that can disturb or interrupt,--in there you would see and remember
as vividly as I myself. The room is prepared.... The channels all are
open. As it was, my pictures flashed into you and set the great chain
moving. For no life is isolated; all is shared; and every detail,
animate or so-called inanimate, belongs inevitably to every other.”
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