“Yet what I saw was so much clearer than our schoolday memories,” I
said. “Those pictures, for instance, of the pastoral people where we
came together first.”
An expression of yearning passed into his eyes as he answered.
“Because in our Temple Days you led the life of the soul instead of the
body merely. The soul alone remembers. There lies the permanent record.
Only what has touched the soul, therefore, is recoverable--the great
joys, great sorrows, great adventures that have reached it. You _feel_
them. The rest are but fugitive pictures of scenery that accompanied
the spiritual disturbances. Each body you occupy has a different brain
that stores its own particular series. But true memory is in, and of,
the Soul. Few have any true soul-life at all; few, therefore, have
anything to remember!”
His low voice ran on and on, charged with deep earnestness; his very
atmosphere seemed to vibrate with the conviction of his words; about
his face occasionally were flashes of that radiance in which his body
of light--his inmost being--dwelt for ever. I remember moving the
marmalade pot from its precarious position on the table edge, lest his
gestures should send it flying! But I remember also that the haunting
reality of “other days and other places” lay about us while we talked,
so that the howling of the storm outside seemed far away and quite
unable to affect us. We knew perfect communion in that dingy room. We
_felt_ together.
“But it is difficult, often painful, to draw the memories up again,”
he went on, still speaking of recovery, “for they lie so deeply coiled
about the very roots of joy and grief. Things of the moment smother the
older pictures. The way of recovery is arduous, and not many would deem
the sacrifice involved worth while. It means plunging into yourself as
you must plunge below the earth if you would see the starlight while
the sun is in the sky. To-day’s sunlight hides the stars of yesterday.
Yet all is accessible--the entire series of the soul’s experiences, and
real forgetting is not possible.”
A movement as of wind seemed to pass between us over the faded carpet,
bearing me upwards while he spoke, sweeping me with his own conviction
of our eternal ancestry and of our unending future.
“We have made ourselves exactly what we are. We are making our future
at this very minute--_now!_” I exclaimed. The justice of the dream
inspired me. Great courage, a greater hope awoke.
He smiled, opening his arms with a gesture that took in the world.
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