“I have been like a man buried up into his neck in an ant-heap: so
buried in the daily world, and stung and stung and stung again, because
I wouldn’t change and grow cold, till now their poison is innocuous, and
the formic acid of social man has no effect on me. And I’ve kept my
warmth. And I will keep it, till I give it up to the unknown, out of my
poor fat body. And it is my banner, and my wife and my children and my
God--just the flicker that is in my heart like a fire, and that I live
by. I _can’t_ speculate about God. I can’t do it. It seems to me a cold,
antish trick. But the fire that is in my heart is God, and I will not
forswear it, no, not if you offer me all the world. And fire is full of
seeds--full of seeds--and let them scatter. I won’t cherish it on a
domestic hearth. I say I won’t. So don’t bring that up against me. I
won’t cherish it on the domestic hearth. I will use it against the ants,
while they swarm over everything. And I’ll call fire to my fire, and set
the ant-heap at last in a blaze. Like kerosene poured in. It shall be
so. It shall be so. Don’t oppose me. Believe the flame in your heart,
once and for all, and don’t oppose me. Believe the flame of your own
heart, and be with me. Remember I am with you against the ants. Remember
that. And if I am Abraham’s bosom--isn’t it better than no bosom, in a
world that simmers with busy ants? And would you leave every young,
warm, naked thing on the ground for the ants to find. Would you?”
He looked at her searchingly. She was pale, and moved, but hostile. He
swung round in his chair, swinging his heavy hips over and lying
sideways.
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