“But the men that are born like ants, out of the cold interval, and are
womanless, they are not sick of themselves. They are full of cold
energy, and they seethe with cold fire in the ant-hill, making new
corridors, new chambers--they alone know what for. And they have cold,
formic-acid females, as restless as themselves, and as active about the
ant-hill, and as identical with the dried clay of the building. And the
active, important, so-called females, and the active, cold-blooded,
energetic males, they shift twig after twig, and lay crumb of earth upon
crumb of earth, and the females deposit cold white eggs of young. This
is the world, and the people of the world. And with their cold, active
bodies the ant-men and the ant-women swarm over the face of the earth.
“And where then are the sons of men? Where are the sons of men, and man
that is born of woman? Man that is born of woman is a slave in the cold,
barren corridors of the ant-hill. Or if he goes out, the open spaces are
but spaces between ant-hill and ant-hill. And as he goes he hears voices
claiming him, saying: ‘Hello, here comes a brother ant.’ And they hail
him as a brother ant. And from this there is no escape. None. Not even
the lap of woman.
“But I am a son of man. I was once a man born of woman. And by the warm
heart of the mother that bore me, even if fifty wives denied me, I would
still go on fighting with a warm heart to break down the ant-hill. I can
fight them with their own weapons: the hard mandibles and the acid sting
of the cold ant. But that is not how I fight them. I fight them with the
warm heart. Deep calls to deep, and fire calls out fire. And for warmth,
for the fire of sympathy, to burn out the ant heap with the heat of
fiery, living hearts: that is what I stand for.
“And if I can make no one single woman happy, I will make none unhappy
either. But if I can let out the real fire of happiness from the heart
and bowels of man that is born of woman and woman that is born of man.”
Then suddenly he broke off: “And whether I can or not, I _love_ them,”
he shouted, in a voice suddenly become loud and passionate. “I love
them. I _love_ you, you woman born of man, I do, and I defy you to
prevent me. Fiery you are, and fiery am I, and fire should be friends
with fire. And when you make me angry, with your jealousy and mistrust
like the ants, I remember, I remind myself: ‘But see the beauty of the
fire in her! And think how the ants have tortured her and filled her
with fear and with horror!’ And then the rage goes down again, and I
know I love you, and I know that fire loves fire, and that therefore you
love me. And I chalk up another mark against the ants, who have tortured
you with their cold energy and their conscious formic-acid that stings
like fire. And I love you because you’ve suffered from them as I have.
And I love you because you and your husband cherish the fire between
you, sacred, apart from the ants. _A bas les fourmis._
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