Domestic fiction; England -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction
It was a most singular communication for him to make. Why should he,
an elderly man as she at first took him to be, select her as the
recipient for such a tale? She took him to be an elderly man, till
she found by the accidents of conversation that he was two years
younger than Sir Francis Geraldine. Then she looked into his face and
saw that that appearance of age had come upon him from sorrow. There
was a tinge of grey through his hair, and there were settled lines
about his face, and a look of steadied thought about his mouth, which
robbed him of all youth. But when she observed his upright form, and
perceived that he was a strong stalwart man, in the very pride of
manhood as far as strength was concerned,--then she felt that she
had wronged him. Still he was one who had suffered so much as to be
entitled to be called old. She felt the impossibility of putting
him in the same category among men as that filled by Sir Francis
Geraldine. The strength of manhood was still there, but not the salt
of youth. But why should he have told her,--her who had exactly the
same story to tell back again, if only she could tell it? Once or
twice there came to her an idea that she would tell it. He had sought
for sympathy, not under the assurance of secrecy but with the full
conviction, as she felt it, that his secret would be safe. Why should
not she do the same? That there would be great comfort in doing so
she was well aware. To have some one who would sympathise with her!
Hitherto she had no one. Even her mother, who was kindness, even
obedience itself, who attended to her smallest wish, even her mother
regretted the baronet son-in-law. "And yet she would have been left
all alone," she said to herself, marvelling at the unselfish fondness
of a mother. Mr. Western would be bound to sympathise. Having called
upon her for sympathy, his must be ready. But when she had thought of
it thrice she did not do it. Were she to tell her story it would seem
as though she were repeating to him back his own. "I too have been in
love, and engaged, and have jilted a gentleman considerably my senior
in age." She would have to say that, likening herself to the girl who
had jilted him,--or else to tell the other story, the untrue story,
the story which the world believed, in order that she might be on a
par with him. This she could not do. If she told any she must tell
the truth, and the truth was not suitable to be told. Therefore she
kept her peace, and sympathised with a one-sided sympathy.
In Rome they did again meet, and on this occasion they met as quite
old friends. He called upon them at their hotel and sat with them,
happier than usual in his manner, and, for him, almost light and gay
of heart. Parties were made to St. Peter's, and the Coliseum, and the
Capitol. When he left on that occasion Cecilia remarked to her mother
how much less triste he was than usual. "Men, I suppose," she said to
herself, "get over that kind of thing quicker than women."
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